Loving You Forever

"Issy ! Issy ! "

I heard faint noises as I slip into an unknown darkness, it was almost like my world has come to an end. 

This must be where all the dead souls go and as I travel down the darkness I found myself standing in a beautiful landscape, all kind of flowers surrounded me, it must be heaven for it was too beautiful to describe in words.

"Isabella! Isabella!"

I heard a familiar voice, a voice my ears were eager to hear, a voice that never left me for a moment, I turn around and there he was in his favourite black jean and white jersey.

Finally tha day have arrived, the moments I had long for is here, and I couldn't believe my eyes I get to see him again. Nothing has change the same big blue eyes, the broad smile and the messy hairs, and as I got closer to him I could hear the bit of my heart again.

I run into his arms, the familiar scent and the warmness of his hug bought me to tears.

"I miss you so much Danny.. I miss you so much.."I mumble in his arms.

I had forever long to be where he is and now my wish is granted I need nothing more than this.

"Why did you do that Issy?"He asked as I look up in confusion.

why does he look like I made a mistake of being here wasn't he happy to see me.

"Because I don't want to be in a world where you don't exist anymore.. I love you. "I replied

"I don't want that either.."

"Than why do you look sad Daniel.. aren't you happy that we now have forever.."

"No Issy I am glad to see you but not like this.. this will remain only for a short period you will soon be move to another world and we will never get to see eachother again.." 

His words caught me off guard, didn't they say heaven is a place of infinity, a place of reunion, a place of forever happiness.

"What do you mean? Why can't we be together? And why should I be in another world ?" I asked in confusion.

"Because of what you did..?"

"So is this a sort of punishment.." 

"Yes"his answered 

I stood numb over the fact that I had given up everything to be with him but still it wasn't enough to be by his side forever.

I had once lived in a world without him, and it was so painful to live only with his memories that I decided to end my life and go wherever he is.

I could feel tears running down my cheeks, this time it was the fear of not seeing him anymore, the fear of forgetting how much I love him, the fear that the man I love with all my heart can never be mine.

"Issy.. you still have time to decide it's not over yet.." 

"Why can't we be together, I don't want anything but you.."

"Which is why you have to go back, you are in a comma and not dead but if you refuse than this will be our final meeting.."

"Go back to where Danny?" 

"To your life to where you belong.."

"It's no more a life without you... "I broke into tears for no matter what I did we could never be together.

And he wants me to go

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back to the life where he no longer exists, to the life where his memories are fading away.

To the life where there is only me and no more us.

"Issy.." 

"You promise to be there by my side forever but you didn't keep your promise, Danny we were supposed to get married, have kids and grow old together.. haven't nobody told you that you aren't supposed to die young.. "

I cried my heart out for it breaks my heart to lost him again and again, I had enough of his absence why can't we be together.

"Isabella we will be together again but for now you can't be here, and I promise when the right time comes I will be the first one to welcome ,

And you have a life to live, a life to create more memories, I swear this is not goodbye we will meet again

 we shall be forever but until then you have to live ..."He comforted me.

Not an inch in me wants to go back but there is no place for me here, and his words are true this isn't goodbye this is an assurance that one day we will be together . so I made up my mind if this is what it takes to be forever with him then I am willing to go through all the pains again.

I turn back without even having to look at him because I am afraid I will start crying again once I see his face and will never want to leave him again.

And if this is the price of loving someone so much than I am willing to pay the price for it.

"Isabella..."Tears flood uncontrollably soon this voice will never be heard again. 

No matter how much I tried to resist it I could help but look back and see that face for one last time, I forced a smile for I know no matter how much I hate this goodbyes there will be a better hello.

"I am doing the honour of loving you on earth and when we meet again will you do the honour of loving me right my sunshine "I whispered

"I will be here passionately waiting for you and I have love you now and forever.."he replied in between the little smiles.

 "And if you miss me so much, do look up at the sky and know that I am there looking down for you, I will be in the winds, the sun and the rains everywhere you wish I was there.."he added

"Just be in the sky and the rain and I hope you pour down heavily so that I know that you miss me.. and don't you worry... I swear I won't jump off another building again..." 

"Promise.."

"Promise..."

"I love you.."he whispered

Beep! Beep !

 I woke up to the sounds of the machine, I was happy that I am still alive and back to where I was supposed to be , and sad that he doesn't exist in this world.

And then I hear the sounds of the rain pouring hard against the hospital windows bringing a little tears to my eyes. He hasn't forgot his promise

"You sure did miss me a lot... Didn't you? "

"Rose are red,

Trees are green,

Skies are blue,

I am doing the 

Honour of loving

 you on earth

Until we meet again.."