Its Fine! Dont Worry

Hello, My name is Siddharth Sharma, and this is the start and end of my love story. It started a few years back when I was still in school. I had a crush on my childhood friend for way longer than I knew. I never knew what this feeling is called and was obviously a kid to have these feelings so I didn’t stress over it. It all began when some stupid friend of mine came to me for love advice. What the hell was he thinking .. taking advice from me like I am a love guru. It destroyed my life……

Rohit: Hey Rakesh, I have a favor to ask you…Please help me with this

Siddharth: What's up with the face you look serious for the first time in your life.

Rohit: What do you mean by that? Never mind it's actually serious can you really believe it….I think I am in love with a girl from the other section. (Of course, I laughed)

Siddharth: What do you mean you are in love …just last night you are crying when they shut down your favorite cartoon show.

Rohit: That’s different and has nothing to do with this… please you really have to help me out on this.

Siddharth: Kk fine what you want me to do.

Rohit: I want you to do research on that girl. draft up a way for me to propose her so that she would say yes in every scenario

Siddharth: Wtf! Then what will you do?

Rohit: I will support you and will do the hardest part. That is execute the plan.

Siddharth: Na I am not going to do it then

Rohit: Please please if you will not help me who will do you forget you promised to help me when I got transferred here

Siddharth: KK fine tell me her name and I will see what I can do.

Rohit: Oh yes I think you might know her …. Her name is Priyanshi… and I believe her title is Singh

My heart just skipped a bit hearing that name I didn’t know why but I stood there dumbfounded

Rohit: Hey What happened do you know her?

Siddharth: Ah! Yes yes, I know her… I will see what I can do

Rohit: Thanks man you are really a great friend

What the fuck just happened there? Why the hell does he want to go out with her?.... NA..NA the problem here is why the fuck am I against this … I know her since childhood but I don’t like to care about her…. Yes I think I was just taken by surprise there …there is no other reason…(I think)

Rohit calling Siddharth

Rohit: Hey! Siddharth did you do what I asked you for?

Siddharth: What did you ask me to do?

Rohit: Seriously! I gave you an important task remember?

Siddharth: Oh yes yes I am actually on it right now

Rohit: Good Good just ensuring that you are on it!! KK bye text me once you are done for the day

(call ends)

AH god, I forgot about that … So let's see I should find out her favorites first… Yes, let's make a list of what I remember and others I will ask her friend I guess.

Hmm let's see she loves to dance, her favorite movie is harried potter(favorite house shuffle puff I remember that because she said it sounded cute) , she is a chocolate lover yeah she used to eat 5 stars a lot, she is a hardcore nonveg person, and yes she likes surprises.

Hmm, that’s not some useful information at all… Fuck do I really have to do this… I will ask her friends about her tomorrow I guess

Rohit: Hey Siddharth ..any progress?

Siddharth: Hmm I wrote down the things I remember and others I will find out today

Rohit: Really! Lemme see the things.

Siddharth: Here you go

Rohit: WOW! Siddhart you seem to know her from way back

Siddharth: Yeah she is my childhood friend

Rohit: Really is that so …. How was she back then .. same as now?

Hmm, let's see… She was a joyful girl, she was always laughing, she used to play with dogs and cats , she was very friendly with me , one day I told her that I like her homemade muffins, she began bringing them for me whenever they were made and I remember the awkward feeling of being the only guy in her birthday party and ..( why the fuck I am telling this to him)

Ooh you seem like you guys used to hang out often why did you stop hanging out with her

Siddharth: Hmm… I don’t know actually the sections changed and after that we both were busy …

Rohit: Oh … shit the classes are starting we will continue later

The teacher comes in and starts teaching

IN my mind I was thinking about the real reason I stopped talking to her. The real reason was she proposed to me back then and she seemed like she was serious and without knowing her feelings I gave her a reply with laughing that who would want you to be her girlfriend…That’s the reason she went home crying and never contacted me back … and my male ego stopped me to apologize to her.

(After 1 week)

Siddharth: See Rohit here is the plan…YOU will go to her class during the lunch break I have already informed my people and they will make sure that the class is empty and she is inside it and you give her the 5-star chocolate you brought and ask her to go out with you.Is that clear?

Rohit: Yes sir … I will do my best to make you happy

I walked With Rohit to her class and then Rohit went inside I stood in front of the class and watched Rohit as he closed the door.

I don’t know why a part of was wishing that she would refuse him… In my head, I was thinking that why the hell I feel that way I never liked her I even said that awful thing to her but that doesn’t change the fact she is the only girl whom I was closest to and the only girl with whom I can talk with without worrying about anything

Let me explain to you guys what kind of a guy I am

I am that type of guy who likes to sit in the corner of the class and only talks to boys and I will only talk to girls when they start the conversation and I finish it as soon as humanly possible…. And yes some girls think that I am kinda weird and this was the only girl whom I used to be close with.

After 15 mins Rohit came out with a big smile on his face…

Rohit: Siddharth I did it she said yes and told me that she was also kinda interested in me from the moment I got transferred here

Listening to this news I put up on a smile talked with him for a few mins and went back to class with a heavy heart I still didn’t understand why.

The next day this was gossip in the entire school and Rohit seemed like he was enjoying things…After School, I went back home and I started playing a multiplayer game with one of my online friends.

Online Friend: Hey man what's up

Siddharth: Hey there

Online friend: What happened you seem pretty low?

I explained to him the whole story

Online friend: HMM … it's kinda simple why r you feeling this …. You ever imagined that you like her and the only reason you turned her down is that you were too embarrassed then?

It finally hit me…Yes, I remember how I liked her back then and the only reason I declined her was that in my friend circle having a girlfriend was taboo then.

Online friend: Hmm I think you are feeling this now because all the research and thinking about her woke up your feelings and the truth Is that you still like her

All his words were like needles straight piercing into my heart

I replied that na nothing like that and went to sleep atleast I tried to I imagined every possible situation and the more I thought the more heavy my heart became.

The next day was Sunday … I woke up and saw that there were 6 messages from Rohit

Hey, you up?

We are planning to have our first date today and we are doing it at the café near your house

She asked you to come I don’t know why but she did so you have to come

And one more thing the hotel near that café can you manage to get a room there at the instant if the situation dictates?

Actually, I am quite excited so who knows what might happen

And please bring me some condoms

It was like a thunderclap … I mean why did she want me there this is her date …..I don’t know but I replied to him got ready and went to the café they were already there I didn’t want to go there but the reason she invited me there was rolling over my head.. so I put on a fake smile I went up to the table

Rohit: Hey Siddharth, I thought you will never show up you are 30 mins, late bro

Siddharth: Aah I just became stuck on something.. you guys carry on anyways I have come to say hello and leave it's your first date after all… Hey, Priyanshi after a long time aah. I really hope this idiot doesn’t trouble you

Hello … nah I hope not otherwise I can always leave him right(She said something serious in a funny way … WTF!... Rohit face was scenery when she said that)

I chatted with them for like an hour because they won't let me leave and I left for the parking I was very disappointed while coming back I don’t know why maybe I expected something or just her to acknowledge me… she acted like we are just friends meeting after a long time… Dammit why my heart aches… I should just forget her she is my friend's girlfriend now…. More like I served her to him … I don’t have anything to say now

Siddharth! Siddharth!..... you left your phone at the table.

Siddharth: Oh thanks a lot…Where did Rohit go?

Priyanshi: He is taking care of the bill and he also asked you to wait he said he needs something

Siddharth: Ohh .. Kk….( I am nervous I am sweating like hell… This is not good…)

Priyanshi: Hey Siddharth you got any girlfriend?

Siddharth: Ahh…where did that come from? ( at this time I think my body malfunctioned)

Priyanshi: NA I was just curious….

Siddharth: Na hasn’t been lucky yet.

Priyanshi: You know I was waiting … I thought you would come back and say sorry or whatever and makeup with me… But now I think the words you say you actually meant it.

Ahh, what is this I feel like I am going to die I can't breathe … My heart is racing my stomach is cramping up…I don’t know this feeling if I still like her why can't I say it now she is basically asking me that...I want to say but the words aren’t coming out..more like I am afraid… say something dammit…

Siddharth: Na nothing like that sorry if I hurt you back then… I wasn’t just mature enough to understand that feeling then…

Priyanshi: Then why didn’t you propose to me before Rohit .. I am sure you told him about everything the way he should do it, my favourite food,…my choices and stuff

Rohit: Sorry to keep you guys waiting they messed up the bill so that took long… what you guys were talking about?

Priyanshi: Just catching up with each other

Ah yes you are old friends,… Siddharth come here for a sec

Siddharth: Yes what's up?

Rohit: Can you believe that she would go to a hotel room if I want …. Please get that room for me…Please, please

Siddharth: Ok..ok…let me call that guy

Siddharth: Hello? Hey Rohan … Can I get a room in your hotel … Oh is that so… kk thanks anyways

Rohit: Hey what happened

Siddharth: HE said they have a marriage in their hotel so all the rooms are booked

Rohit: Ahh … fuck man…. What will I do now?... I remember you leave alone…. Please let us use your room

Siddharth: No hell no my home is not a brothel you know

Rohit: Please, please…. I will do whatever you want( HE started begging me so I ended up saying yes)

Siddharth: But this time only

Rohit: Yes sure… did you bring condoms?

Siddharth: Oh shit I forgot…

Rohit: Man !.. and all the medicine shops are opposite to your home .. DO one thing take her to come I will just buy some and rush back

Siddharth: Ok…

( after that we left Priyanshi came and sat in my car. I was still shaking from what she had said before… I started driving without saying anything)

Priyanshi: You didn’t answer my question back then…

Fuck she won't let me go I see. Think of something..fast

Siddharth: It's not like that. He is my friend you know I couldn’t have refused him

Priyanshi: Oh that’s the reason … I am your friend right so you wouldn’t refuse me then

Siddharth: I guess so..( I am so done for)

Priyanshi: Actually I am not in the mood to have sex with your friend right now call him and make some excuse

Siddharth: What … Wait a minute … he said you agreed.

Yeah I changed my mood … Call him you said you won't refuse

Fuck….(in my head)…I picked up the phone and called Rohit

Siddharth: Hey man … You see Priyanshi is not feeling well I had to drop her home I think the food in the café made her sick

Rohit: Wtf… why is god against me so much today… should I go to her home?

Siddharth: Na na she leaves with her parents remember …And she said she will make it up to you next time

Rohit: Make it up to me .. that sounds nice … kk then I am heading back home … Bye

Siddharth: Done … where should I drop you? ( I was hoping that she would just get out of my car right now she made me lie with a straight face)

Priyanshi: Oh I thought we were going to your place

Siddharth: What ..yes we were but now Rohit went we have no business

Priyanshi: Yes I do have we are going to your place

I just obeyed like she was my master and I was her servant… I don’t know what I was so guilty about

We entered my house she went and sat on the sofa

Siddharth: SO what business do you have here

Priyanshi: Sit down its gonna be long

Siddharth: Nah it's fine just tell me

Priyanshi: See when I was a kid and I came to know about sex… I promised that I will first do it with the person I like and at that time you are the person I liked… and now I can't do it with anyone without doing it with you.

See the thing is It was too sudden for me to process everything… But inside I was you know happy but still confused

Siddharth: Huh … it was just a promise its not like you have to do it

The look she gave me … told me that she was dead serious… I thought I may still like her I may never get the chance to do it with her …so why not…But the words that came out of my mouth were.

Siddharth: YOU see I don’t have any condoms ..( what the fuck did I just say)

Priyanshi: Don’t worry I don’t mind doing it unprotected

She said that and she went into my room not saying another word… I was still in the living area she shouted are you coming in or should I come out…

Siddharth: Coming in … YOU stay there

When I entered she was lying on the bed naked as a newborn child… I could see every inch of her body her boobs … her vagina… and leaving this the cute face she made while shying just made me forget everything…

Priyanshi: Why don’t you join me?

I removed my clothes went to the bed…. My mind was a complete blank at this point my hormones were at its peak… she took my head and directed it towards her boobs… it was like a marshmallow an even softer than that… they were the perfect you could ever imagine.. perfectly round … of decent size ..my body moved after this on its own I licked her nipples on one side and I was continuously playing with the other one with the other hand… then I slowly moved up and kissed her on the lips… She saw me in the eyes for the first time… then I again kissed her this time she opened her mouth a little and then again and then it turned into a full French kiss… our tongues were rolling on each other .. saliva getting mixed. I opened my eyes to see her .. she had her eyes closed and was gabbing my hair with force….

Siddharth: Priyanshi can I move down?

She just moved her head to the right and opened her thighs up…I moved my head down there and started playing with her clitoris and then I went for the lips… I stayed there she started trembling short after she pulled me up and kissed me hard… She said I can't wait anymore to do it… I slowly entered her ….her hymen broke and there was blood… it struck me she was telling the truth she was not joking around…. In my head, I had fallen for her even more.

Priyanshi: What happened?

Siddharth: Na the blood just took me by surprise

Priyanshi: YOU think I was lying?

NA NA … I said that and began shaking my heaps… she went from frowning to moaning real quick… it continues with kissing … we completed after 15 mins.

I was done for … my heart was about to burst up and I was going to tell her how I feel …

Priyanshi: Ah done… I was worried sick about this … I thought It was going to be a hassle to keep this promise… but all went smoothly. Forget anything happened it was just a thing I have to do … Don’t tell anyone .. now I can have sex with my boyfriend…I am going to call an uber you stay there… and don’t overthink I don’t like you anymore I probably hate you…don’t come on dates as if they are getting together.

She said that she got up dressed up and left like nothing happen …hearing those words from her all the bolt-up feelings came out…I started crying… I cried for three hours… after that I consoled myself that yes she has already moved on of course I am the idiot here to expect anything… it's not a breakup since I was never in a relationship but I don’t know why it hurts so bad I wanna die……………………