If I Would Have Known

After Pandemic again the struggle of getting job to survive in life and to fullfill the needs of family. I got an opportunity to work in a prestigious Institute.

It was my first day in the campus there were many other newly colleagues. . new faces new ideas new behaviour. . . . Everything was looking so beautiful campus was around with snowy mountains and so romantic environment. . . oh in the evening we got a call for writting a joining letter. All colleagues were present there. I entered room i suddenly saw a man wearing red and black jacket with grey shade jeans. . . When I saw him my heart was like oh god now i feel the is completed. something that was missing is he. . . Now everything will go smoothly. The smile on his face and the way of talking with others. He was so lovable. While talking to other male members he mentioned that he has two daughters 1 is around 3. 5 and another is 1. 5 like that. . . when I heard this all the dreams i had within the minutes were broken. I stopped thinking about him.

Then next day it was normal conversation and from now on words we started playing basketball and badminton together with other members. When the day passes we became good friends as his nature was jolly and caring and we started chatting on phone. Then the phase started when we suddenly started dating each other as he was married i stop having expectations from him and i thought i will stop dating him and friendship is enough for us. Suddenly he got a call from his coaching centre he has to go there and complete his incomplete work for that he applied 7 days leave from school.

In the early morning someone is knocking my door when I opened the door it was no one but he. . . he came to my door to say that i am leaving for home and his kissed on my cheeks and he left. From home he started caring about me. . . his way of loving was totally different he was caring me like his child. I couldn't stop my self to fall for him again and again. . . after few months we didn't feel that we are different personalities and we started intimate moments. On day went to long drive he was in a blue jeans and blue jacket it was my life's best memorable day. We spend hours and hours. Our life was going as we wanted it to go. It was the month of June we had holidays of 10 days in between that his wife got to know about his marital affair. He was not able to connect me and me too. Then before joining the school i texted him and his wife saw the text and she told him to call me infront of him and say that between you and me there was nothing. And next he came back school and i called him that i take his stuff back to his room from my room. That was the day he started ignoring me and kept telling lie to me. . . . Many times his lies wers caught by me but all the times i was forgiving him and trying to save our relationship. . . .

Then things were going on smoothly again and he celebrated my birthday like the way i was his princess. Then the holidays again started for two month. On his way he start arguing me about my past and then he reached home and blocked my number. For me it was very rough and tough time to handle my mental health.

2022,1 March i reached his place to make him understand that i will not live with you and send back and said i am nothing for him. . . but still i tried to texted him all the time he totally ignored like there was nothing between he and me. . .

20,feb 2022 we joined school back. We didn't talked to each other after few days i went his room. I was broken i yelled on him and asked him why he did with me. . . after giving him lot of respect and love was i deserving such things. Then he tried to calm me down and few of our friends. After few days everything was normal and we patched up again. My intentions were always that to save our relationship but he kept telling me . . . There were again up Downs in our relationship. . . He started hating me because both of us we lost respect for each other. . . . Sometimes i was feeling i will leave him but i wasn't able to do that. . . . Few months ago of getting a high position he started ignoring me as i was no body for him. He started giving priorities to other people who were of his level. People were talking about him bad things. I stopped him to do such things but potrait me bad person infront of other people he tried to brain wash the person who were closed to me to become good person in her eyes . . both of them started ignoring. . I was all alone then other guy Joined whom I was friendly. I was considering him like my brother cum friend. I was having food with him. And other side people started talking about me with him informing that i was bad relationship with other guy and i am cheating him. . . He was in search of an excuse to break the relationship with me.

One after fighting with him i went to the that friend with my lunch box full of vegetables and he noticed that i had cried a lot and he started encouraging me to share my feelings with why i was feeling so low. . . He offered me as i used to eat food with him. . . I stared eating with him when I had one spoon my boyfriend suddenly open the door and i was eating food and put allegations on me that i am characterless girl. He discussed with everyone that i cheated him. If he was loving me that much he would have asked me once what kind of relationship i have the other guy. He would i have trusted me once. As knows everything about i am Frank and jolly person but i never tried to cheated on him. . . infact he has checked my call histories as well. . . Finally he left me alone with scars on my heart and sting on my image as characterless girl . . . Finally i was terminated from the Institute with sting on my image. . . . . All my good deeds and the good things were vanished in a mili Seconds. . . . The love, care and respect i gave him and the defaming while having relationship with him. Everything was vanished. . . And the day came when I saw him smiling with enemies that i am kicked out from the institute. . . . From that day everything has end up in my heart. . . . . I don't feel for him anymore not because he hurt, just because IF I WOULD HAVE KNOWN HIM my life wouldn't have ruined in few seconds. . . . If he ever read this story i wanted to say i have loved you more than anything else but you broken me onto piece. Thank you for coming in my life and telling me real meaning of love.