I Wish The Time Could Have Stopped That Day
I Wish The Time Could Have Stopped That Day17 mins 18 17 mins 18
I was in class 9th when I first met her, in the month of November and it was a coincidence as I got late that day and then this happened I saw a girl struggling with her cycle chain and seeking for some help but no one was there so after seeing that I stopped my cycle and asked her if she needs any help not like other girls she didn`t said no because she was indeed very helpless and was wanting someone who could help her so the moment I asked her if she needs any help she immediately replied that “yes, please”.. I was able to see the tension on her face but not further focusing on her face, I focused on the cycle chain but then I realized that it was front chain which was out from the excel and even I didn`t know how to put it back again but now it was not just about helping her it was about my self-respect too so after struggling for some time I was finally able to put the chain back again and after that finally a relief smile was on her face but in this all struggle period all the chain dust was on my hands and even my dress got dirty too , but not focusing on that I focused on her as how happy she was and I was lost in her smile but then the next moment she shook my shoulder and offered me her handkerchief to clean my hands but I refused to take her handkerchief but then she forced me to do that so then I didn`t said “No”. after all it was a girl order so how can I deny that and after cleaning my hands a bit, I told her to be careful and reach soon as it was quite late but then she said can we go together?? even I wanted the same but I told her if we will go together you will be later but she didn`t listen to me and was stubborn in going with me then again I was unable to say her no, so we started moving together and later I asked her name and class she was in, she replied with a smile and said “Supriya and I`m in 9th standard” and then she asked my name and class too so even I replied with a smile and said my name is “Deepak and I`m also in class 9th” after talking all the stuff we reached to a turn whereby taking right I would reach my home and by taking left she would reach her home, I didn`t know about her feeling but I didn`t want to go from that side but as I said it was late so then I said let`s make our way. But for a while she didn`t said anything but then she replied with a smile that are we meeting tomorrow as well then only I`ll go this way or else I won`t be going and after seeing her smile I was just mesmerized so I just said “yes”, we are meeting tomorrow too after school in front of your school gate” after listening this she smiled again and said okay then I`ll go and will wait for you tomorrow, and then she took a turn and when she started moving then even I took the turn and started moving but while going home one question was popping again n again in my brain that what she saw in me which let her do all these things and how fast things are moving I was very confused throughout my way to home or even might be because such thing has happened for the first time in my life. But even after all these things I was happy and also bit nervous because I had to go tomorrow as well as what I`ll do there , what if any of my friend or neighbor saw me standing there and thinking all these things that day ended.
Next morning I went to school and by every passing hour I was getting more nervous and then finally school was over, while going parking my friends asked me to come with them but I said them no, so they all went and lastly I also started moving and after few minutes I was outside of her school gate where I saw her waiting for me alone and by seeing her standing alone my all nervousness just went off as if nothing was happened to me yet, so then finally I went to her we smiled by looking at each other and shake our hands and then we started walking instead of riding cycle on her demand, we started talking about how was your day and stuff like all other things but during all those conversations one question just stucked me which was “ so were you nervous throughout the day and even yesterday too” this question again putted me back into nervousness that what will gonna happen the next moment when I will tell her that “yes I was” but before I could answer she whispered that “I was so much” after hearing that I asked her the same question , she cutely replied that “obviously!! Just like you were” I smiled after hearing that answer from her. Then after talking throughout the way we again reached to the turn and like yesterday we both stopped but today we both were silent coz none of us wanted to go alone but yet again we were getting late but then she asked me ‘will you mind if I come with you this way’ after listening to this I was actually happy but I realized one thing and thought to say her no because by taking this route she would reach late and we were already late. But I don`t know why I didn`t say anything and just said ‘yeah sure’ I would love that and with this, we again started moving together and talking but this time during those ongoing conversation I asked her one question “are you happy…..I mean how are you feeling”…. She smiled and replied that what can you see from my face, ‘I said’ “seems to be happy” she said yes Deeps I`m very happy coz I haven`t felt this much connectivity and safe with anyone after hearing this I didn`t know what to reply as I have heard this for the very first time that someone is happy because of me and feeling secure coz of my presence but then I controlled my emotions and started acting normally but I couldn`t control my blushing so after seeing that she whispered softly “I know even you are happy” after hearing this I was out of my senses and was blushing like an idiot, so does she, but then I stopped and asked her “why did you call me Deeps instead of Deepak” so she replied that I found it cuter for you. And after walking for so long we again reached to a turning from where she has to take the left turn or else by taking my way she will reach more late but I was able to see the sadness on her face so I said let`s go I`ll come with you till your colony gate, she just looked at me as if what good I have done by saying this but then she said no I will go alo…..before she could complete the sentence and the last word I stopped her and just said I`m coming and will not gonna leave you ‘alone’, and then throughout the way we both were talking, smiling and enjoying each other company and finally after dropping her in front of the colony gate, I went back to my home. Then we started going together every day sometimes either from my route or sometimes from her route and by this way we were getting closure day-by-day. And with the passing time we completed 2 months of togetherness (I mentioned it because of some reasons). And it was now the month of Jan we still use to go together but a big blow was about to come now and it was my Pre-boards by the mid of Jan and the day I got to know about my timetable I was unhappy not because of the tests it was about that now I have to go alone as she is not having the papers on the same date on which I`m having and that was the thing which really made me upset as I was very helpless, so the day I got my time table I thought I will tell her about this and we will figure out something but unfortunately she didn`t turned up for the school that day so I went from there after waiting for her for so long but one thing was disturbing me so much that I will be having half-days from tomorrow and I can`t even wait till her school ends coz my mamma was known about the half-days so I was in a deep stress throughout the day and also how I`ll tell her all this as that was merely impossible as that time we were not having phones so I was very helpless but I picked myself and made myself strong and prayed from god that after our pre-board we could meet. After completion of my pre-board I got to know that she was still having her pre-boards and her timing is different and mine too, this time I got very upset coz in my mind it was running that till the final paper I won`t be able to see her and for how long I will have to go alone. But there was something still unknown which was coming to break me more deeply.
After going alone for so many days it was now mid of Feb and we were told to take our admit card so after taking that I was returning home like every day alone but then coincidently I saw her going with her friends so I just paddled my cycle faster so that I can reach as soon as possible to meet her and the moment I reached there she was shocked and surprised and in a stammering way she said “heyyy” and then she asked her friends to go ahead as now she will go with me and finally we were alone and together after so many days, but as her friend went she also started walking ahead of me and was whispering something I couldn`t heard that, but I was able to feel the anger and the happiness at the same time from her face so then I went closer to her and before she starts fighting with me I told her everything which happened, except of that the day when I got to know about my time table and I went to you and you were absent coz I knew she will start blaming her more n more (and I guess I did it right coz if I could have done this she wouldn`t have forgiven her that day n might be for later too) and then I even told her that how much I missed her everyday so she just smiled and said “okay, I`m not angry” but her reply was not sounding proper to me as if she was trying to tell me something else. So then I asked her ‘what happened you don`t sound good?’ , ‘are you fine?’ for a while she didn`t give any reply, she was behaving quite strange that day and was trying to convey something from her silence only, but after some minutes she finally said “ I was angry with you as you didn`t tell me anything and just went off for about a month, I was very upset but today when I saw you I don`t know what happened to me as my all anger just went off somewhere else only” after listening to this I was feeling more guilty that I have hurt her but she told me that you were not at the fault it was all circumstances so you should not be guilty. I don’t know how she was so perfect and how every time she used to make things very easy. But after saying this she again went silent, then I again asked her is there anything which you are hiding from me….what happened to you, you don`t look fine today? Why are you not talking to me?? Tell me please, then she finally broke her silence and said we are moving to Delhi as my dad got posted out, after hearing this for a minute I thought it was a joke or I have heard something wrong, so then I asked her again and looked in her eyes, she just nodded her head and I saw the tears in her eyes which confirmed me that whatever I heard was completely true. Once again I lost my senses but this time the reason was totally different and I was totally confused what to say and how to react, she was also very quiet so I was not able to decide what do I do now, how do I react, I was completely blank and I was very sad as this would have been the last meeting with her coz from tomorrow I won`t be going to school as we were given preparation leave, this was how it was supposed to end. But then I controlled myself and picked myself and asked her “SO NOW???” this ends here only. Coz from tomorrow I won`t be going to school as we were given preparation leave so now what, what we will do, I was getting hyper and was filled with emotions but without saying anything she crabbed my hands and made me quiet but there was lot of things in my heart which I wanted to convey her but the moment she held my hand I just forgot everything and I was lost in that moment, and then she finally opened up and said “I will never gonna forget you and our bond, I will always keep you in my heart and just for the last time I want to feel every second of today and then this only happened that day I didn`t spoke anything further as I was feeling the pain and helplessness of our both, I was just feeling the warmness of her hands and the way she was holding it sometimes tighter sometimes lightly but for the whole way till she reached home, she didn`t left my hands, I was so damn lost that I didn`t realized that I have reached her home but then she introduced me to her mother, I greeted her even did she and then she asked me to come in but it was getting late so I asked her and Riya to leave, so her mother said okay I understand beta and then she went inside by saying Riya “to see him off” but she was there only so I asked her again to leave, she didn`t said anything but her eyes was saying everything that I should stop there only with her but then I said “take care of yourself properly and be safe always and I will never forget you” after saying this I said goodbye, and just went far from her sight as soon as possible, coz I was filled with tears, which I didn`t wanted to show her as I was knowing if I would have done that she couldn`t controlled herself so I just went silently from there but for the whole way till home my tears didn`t stopped for a while and even after reaching I cried a lot in my washroom. For the whole day I just sat quietly, didn`t talk with anyone n didn`t eat anything, this thing happened for some more days but then I got normal coz I knew now nothing will change the truth.
After being sad for somedays I picked myself and started studying for finals and then after somedays I started with my final papers, every day after the paper I use to go from her route only so that I can feel her, I even thought of going to her home but I never had that much strength to do that coz after seeing her I won`t be able to go alone and with passing time it was time for my last paper and luckily from somewhere I got to know that she was having her last paper on the same day on which I`m also having, and after knowing this thing I was really happy as if someone has putted the energy back in me and so finally that day came and just after completing the paper I just rushed towards her school so that I could meet her before she goes and then I finally reached there I saw her going alone, I was so damn happy that my tears came out from my eyes with happiness but without wasting more time I wiped up my tears and just went towards her and called her “Hey Riya” she just turned back quickly and without caring anything she just hugged me tightly and started crying like hell and for some time she didn`t left me but then she realized that it was a public place and so many people was watching us so then she got normal but her tears didn`t stopped so I wiped them for once but she said till how long and how many times will you gonna do this coz these are not gonna stop and after seeing her crying continuously I also started crying as well and till some distance we both were crying only by holding each other hand but then I wiped her tears again and asked her to stay quiet as like by this way we won`t be able to leave each other, though she stopped crying but she didn`t left my hand and for the whole way she held my hand tightly only but then afterwards she wiped her tears and asked me that how did I got to know about that we are having our last paper on same day? I just said it was our connection that told me, and after listening to this she blushed like a child, but after this, I asked her the most difficult question (for me to ask and for her to answer) that “when are you leaving?” for a while she didn`t say anything but then she just looked at me and said “today itself”, and by this time we were known that it’s our last meeting and now we won`t be meeting ever again and even if then when??? But then I asked her that who is gonna come to take your result, she said, my dad, and this was the last thing I asked her and after walking for a while I broke the silence by saying that “it is not easy for me to let you go like this way but I promise you that you will always remain in me till the day I die, and I will never forget anything from the day we met till to this day” and after saying this, I hugged her and then she whispered “I wish that the time just stops here only”, and I said “I wish too” and after that for the whole way we remained quiet as if our hearts were talking and we were silent and we were loving each other company and also re-living every moment for the last time, but I don`t know “why I felt the path had become very short that day” as very soon we reached to her society gate it was looking like that we have just walked for just 5 minutes, but after reaching there I could now feel the emptiness and also this that now I will never gonna see her again, now I`ll have to walk alone and even didn`t knew will I be able to see her again in my life later or not, I was feeling all these things badly, but then she asked me to follow her to her home but I said “NO” crossing her sentence for the first time and basically for the last time too, so I knew if I would have went there she wouldn`t have let me go alone by leaving her as until this time too she was holding my hands and was saying not to go from her teary eyes by looking into my eyes and by squeezing my hands but then I answered her by nodding my head and by taking my hands off from her hand and by kissing her forehead which made us cry again and with this for the last time I wiped her tears and same she did too, and then I told her to “take care of herself always and also that, you will always remain in my heart”, after this I asked her to go home and only when she will go I will move from here, firstly she didn`t listened to me but then I putted my hand on her cheeks and pleased her that if you will take me to your home then I will seriously won`t be able to go back again so after listening she closed her eyes and turned back and started walking by continuously looking backward to me until the final turn came and till where I also saw her for the “last time” with those tears in her eyes.… just after she went from there I didn`t looked back to that direction n just took the opposite turn for my home and once again for the whole way my tears didn`t stopped as I knew that she was leaving today itself and I won`t be able to see her again………
But after this when school was reopened after the final results, I used to go daily from that way just to feel her presence in that atmosphere...
I wish the time could have stopped that day.
I wish I see her again soon.
I wish one day I will relive that moment again with her.