I Want To Be Energy Again

Again I am going from high and low times

Where am unable to cry

Where first surrounding seems like a rose now they are hurting like a thorns

My mind kept on arising many questions of my own existing

Why the hell am still writing my script

Being good seems nothing.. Nothing 

It's hard to find a smile

I know happiness lies within us... But nowadays am losing on a daily basis

I think am losing my mind, my purity of my soul, am absorbing surrounding energies

I wish papa I can have you again

My life charge is getting over right now

I wanna scream on my top of the voice

I want that hug again, I want those words again

I am unable to stand again

I might fall down right now am suffering now more and more nowadays

I have taken support of my words to make myself strong every time

I have to portrait everytime am strong and brave to mumma.

I need a shoulder to cry and wash away my all pain that am suffering right now

My smile hurts me nowadays coz it's not really one which I use to have

Everyone says I have a beautiful bright smile like a sun

But sun is a ball of fire it has to keep burning to give life on the earth

People curse sun on the summer days

Coz of too hotness but in winter they only crave for the warmness

I am just speechless about whats happening in my life

I really want to be energy again

I dont wanna stay in this planet again