Heart in another Country

My story begins when I was in school, I was a teenager and it's common to fall in love. But my bad habit was to use dating apps. And somehow I found a love, a real one from Vietnam. Who said distance can't allow love? We used to love each other not only like lovers but also we were soulmates. We also promised to meet one day, but that one was not possible to come, we both knew that yet we loved each other. 

But suddenly life changes, when we broked up, not because we lost interest, because of my dad. But he ask me he would come in new year which was only few days far. Unfortunately I has to reject it. After all this our love not ended. We gone away from each other because of my dad, but here it's my fault too, my marks were going down day by day, where I used to be topper, I was getting less than average marks. It was not also the fault of our relationship, he always support me to study in time, but I wasted all time by waiting for him to come back from work, texting other friends, playing outside etc. 

After that I cried whole day, my heart broked so much, I think it was better if he broke then I could managed myself somehow. We both feeled like we are living without breathing. 

Days were going and I started staying alone, far from friends, parents, everyone. I felt like no one is mine. I started focusing on studies again, that's kept me busy. The pain of going away from a closed one is the most dangerous pain in this world, I understood that when while reading books too, tears were falls down of my eyes automatically. I felt difficulty in breathing. My parents took all the freedoms from me after that incident, but I tried many times to talk with him. Slowly days passed, I started to be normal with everyone. 

Everything became normal slowly, then again after 4 years I talked with him and now we discussed how we used to love each other. I regret, for my love and memories he stopped dating and decided to not marry anyone else if not me. 

I wonder today also how a person can love like this in a distance relationship. I was lucky to get such a partner and unlucky to loose him. However far he is always close to my heart even today. Hence you can say my heart is beating in another country.