Fairytales

How do you feel here? You used to tug urself in the blanket with fairytales. You always wanted a Prince Charming. But it was the cold you loved too. When you snuggled to hear stories of murder and how they would give you sharp shivers but you always got sweeter goosebumps when the Prince Charming slid one glass slipper. A perfect fit. Isn't it amazing how you always wanted to be a "perfect fit" in someone's life? You always loved Rapunzel because you impersonated herself with you. You liked how she was trapped on her own. That's what you felt all the time. You felt you didn't belong here.

Around you, real princesses floated about you like fall winds. Because you were different. You were and are real. But you fell in a trap just like Rapunzel when her mother trapped her in the castle. You saw the gulf between you and others and you vowed to stop believing in fairytales. But the stories they are a part of you they are in you deep as poison. You always wished your Prince Charming will arrive at your bedside at night when you are about to fall asleep to hold you, to save you. You needed to be saved from everything, everything unfair. It was a cruel shrug of 100 moments. From every liar masquerading as an honest person that you let into your heart.

At some point you gave up you realised you didn't had whatever it takes to turn a beast into a man. Because at some point you loved the beast, mayb you even impersonated the beast with yourself. I know Rapanzel and Beast dont fall together but it is life. Some bring out good and some bring out bad in you. You then, surrounded yourself with the people you always resented. You even hoped that someday they will let you share their power and you hated yourself and that diminished you even more.

And then, right when you thought you might just disappear into the air. He saw you. Your Prince Charming. See, you knew deep down it was too good to be true. So you let yourself be swept. Your old self be swept. Because you had him and he was the first one to lift you up. Now in his castle, you understand that it's okay to let yourself go. You always wanted a happy ending and to get one you have to love him. Don't you want this? To be loved. Didn't you want him to crown you? Didn't you ask for it? So say you can and want to live like this. So say thank you