Down in the dumps

“Lubb Dubb, Lubb Dubb..” I felt my heart beating faster, my adrenaline was increased, I was in state of dilemma, and sweats of sorrow dripped along my temple, tears of pain welled in my eyes

“Casey, Casey” the Magistrate called my name

“What’s your statement?” she asked me,

I wasn’t able to speak because lips were hurt by agony, my tongue was unable to form a word, my voice was out, I closed my eyes took a deep breath, When I opened my eyes, I saw those deceiving eyes that hurt me, the fake lips that lied to me, the disgusting face that stabbed me in the back,

“Honey, I love you, please trust me” he pleaded with a fake innocent look,

On hearing his words my mind was shifted backwards.

I was studying Engineering course in Richmond University. I wasn’t interested in love affairs, my friend Danny used to encourage me to engage in love but I was reluctant, I concentrated in my studies and scored top grades. I thought I wouldn’t fall in love, but it changed after I met Brandon. He was doing Computer course in the same university. I met him in a party hosted by my friend Sean. He was charming and funny, he was every girl’s dream boy, he loved partying, dancing, teasing most importantly flirting. He had dated so many girls yet he didn’t engage with anyone.

At that party, he was interested in me but I rejected, he smilingly took my hand and pulled me to the dance floor, I was irritated at his behavior, I dragged myself out of the dance floor , later I went to the bar to have a drink, he came there too,

“What you’re thinking?” I angered at him

“Chill babe, I’m here to get the most beautiful girl a drink” he grinned,

“No, thank you” I left the bar and went to rejoin with my friends.

Our first meeting was actually flop, so I thought he wouldn’t pursue me but to my surprise he did, he often came to meet me at the canteen, coffee shop, in the library, he asked for a date,

“No” I replied, again he asked “No” I replied,

I was irritated at his behavior, but I had some feelings for him, although I behaved rudely with him he never turned red, he used to smile and grin happily at my responses that was very unique, I fell in love with him very soon. But I never showed up, I accepted a date with him, normally he used to get excited at my refusal but now he got super excited, we had so many differences like I love studying but he hates to study, I love to read book he was sick of books, I didn’t like to attend night clubs, he was a lover of night clubs, even though our tastes were different cupid hit the love arrow and we started to love.

I loved Brandon so much, I never had been in relationship or in love with any other man, he was my soul mate I thought, My birthday arrived I invited Brandon to my Birthday celebration, the event began but he came late I was upset as he was the special one, he told me that he was stuck with a work, and brought me a bouquet of white roses, my favorite flower, I was very happy and hugged him tightly.

     Later after the party commenced, he proposed me, with ring in his hand, I didn’t expect that,

“Casey, will you marry me?”

I was so excited, tears of joy welled from my eyes,

“Yes Brandon! Yes!”

 I accepted and he put that ring on my finger and we had our first kiss. We decided to get married after graduation. I was eagerly waiting for our marriage. After .graduation I secured a job, Brandon also got a job as Hotel manager. We both decided to get married but my parents didn’t accept our alliance. I tried to convince them but they refused, on Brandon’s side his parents got divorced and parted their own ways, he was living alone,

     Brandon was upset as my parents refused our marriage, I comforted him,

“Don’t worry darling, they will soon like you”

“Do you think so?”

“Yes, be chill”

“Okay, as my wife is commanding” he hugged me, his grief was relieved.

     We planned our wedding in Beach, I invited all my friends, I also invited my parents, and they as expected rejected the invitation. I was so sad, but I thought Brandon would fill my life with the love I lost, Two days before the wedding, my friend Danny told me that she saw Brandon with some other woman in out my theatre, they were so close, and

“Danny, please stop!”

“Casey, you should think about it”

“You’re saying that Brandon is cheating on me”

“I do, I don’t trust him”

“I don’t care about your opinion”

“Casey, it doesn’t matter, I care only about my friend”

“You really care about me?”

“I do Casey,”

“Oh! Then you might have not suspected Brandon”

“Casey just hear me once”

“No, if you say any word ill about Brandon, I’m done with you”

I stormed off and went for wedding purchases. Later Danny apologized to me, I was angry but she was my best friend I gave up my anger and reconciled with her. The day of wedding arrived, Brandon and I were so happy. The wedding decorations were remarkable, we came and stood before the Officiant, he asked us to take the vows,

Brandon took his vow,

“You have taught me that two people joined together with respect, trust, and open communication can be far stronger and happier than each could ever be alone. 

You are the strength I didn't know I needed, and the joy that I didn't know I lacked. Today, I choose to spend the rest of my life with you. 

You have made me the happiest man on the world today by agreeing to share your life with me. I promise to cherish and respect you.

 I promise to care for you and protect you. I promise to comfort you and encourage you. I promise to be with you for all of eternity.”

I took my vow,

“I choose you and promise to choose you as my husband every day we wake. I will love you in word and deed. I will laugh with you, cry with you, scream with you, grow with you, and craft with you. 

To be your kin and your partner in all of life's adventures is all I could hope for in the world. Loving what I know of you and trusting what I don't yet know, I give you my hand. I give you my love.

 I give you myself, the good, the bad, and the yet to come.. I am proud to be your wife and to join my life with yours. I vow to support you, inspire you, and love you always. 

For as long as we both shall live, I will be by your side–for better or worse, in sickness and health, for richer or poorer. You are my one and only today and every day.”

The Officiant asked to exchange the rings, we did and then he asked to kiss, we kissed and finally were announced as husband and wife.

“Will you keep your vows Brandon?” I asked him

“Yes, I will” he replied happily, I was so glad that I found my soul mate and trusted him

  I came back to the current situation, the vows he took was echoing in my ears, he failed to keep it,

“Casey, your statement?” the Magistrate asked me

“I want divorce, I don’t need to reunite with him” I made my statement,

“Are you sure?” the Magistrate asked me

“Yes, Mam, I’m sure” I took my move boldly

“Casey, please change it” Brandon pleaded

I never minded him, the Magistrate was preparing for the verdict, my mind drifted towards the most dreadful part of my life.

After marriage Brandon and I shifted to apartment life. We were very happy. He used to come late at nights owing to his work, I sometimes be late. I used to make coffee for him, he loved it. One day I came early from my office, I thought to make dinner and texted Brandon to come early, he replied “Yes”

     After I made dinner, I waited for him; the clock was running “tick- tock”, it was getting late night yet he didn’t come. I tried to call him but he didn’t attend my calls; also he didn’t text me. I waited and fell asleep on the couch, in the early morning I heard sound in the kitchen and woke up and saw Brandon.

     “Why you didn’t come early?” I questioned him

     “Oh baby! I’m so sorry; I was stuck with an important work, so I wasn’t able to make it”

     “I won’t accept this excuse”

     “I’m sorry, please forgive me” he kneeled in front of me and pleaded,

“Okay, get up”

I believed him and never suspected him, many days such things happened but I never suspected him, one day I received a chance to go for an office tour, I was excited I told Brandon he encouraged me to go, the tour was for three days, on the first day I felt dizzy, I was unable to eat and vomited. I fainted and fell. My co – workers lifted me and admitted me in the hospital, the doctors examined me and told me that I was Pregnant, my joy knew no bounds, I was so delighted, I decided to tell Brandon but I thought to give him a surprise.

I cancelled my tour and went back to see Brandon to give him the good news. I drove to his hotel, I asked the receptionist where he was, she said that he went home, so I drove back to our apartment, I had a spare key with me I unlocked the door, it was dark inside, I heard a woman’s voice from our bedroom,

“Oh Yes! Brandon!”

 What’s happening, I thought and switched on the lights, I was shocked to see my husband lying with another woman, I couldn’t believe that my husband sleeping with another woman in our bedroom, I was speechless,

“Casey, what you’re doing here?” he shockingly asked me,

“How could you do this?” I asked him

“Casey, listen to me I…”

“You, cheat!”

I threw the lamp stand over him and stormed off, Tears welled in my eyes, all heard about Brandon was true, I couldn’t bear being cheated, and I cried and got in my car and drove fast. All the incidents came to my head, from college he being late on my birthday party, not attending the pool party with me, coming late to home, mostly Danny’s warning; I lost my mind and control, I wasn’t able to drive and a huge truck hit me, I suffered from a major accident,

     I opened my eyes and I was in hospital bed, the Doctors told me that I survived a major accident and they were reluctant to say further,

“What is it Doctor?”

“Your fetus was aborted”

“What!”

 I stumbled and cried aloud, they tried to comfort me, just then my parents came,

“Casey, our sweetie!”

“Mom, Dad” I was so happy on seeing them, they apologized for being away from me,

“It’s okay” I cried away all my pain in their arms, Danny also came to see me,

“Are you okay, Casey?” dad asked me

“You seem to hide something”

“What is it sweetie? Tell us” he asked me, I was unable to tell them,

“Casey, my darling,” I heard Brandon’s voice, he was standing near me,

“Get out, I don’t want to see you”

“Casey listen” he pleaded

“What’s wrong?” my mom asked me

“Dad sent him away, he CHEATED ON ME!”

on hearing that my dad’s face turned red, he pushed Brandon out, I cried and told them the whole story, they were so upset, Danny put a reassuring hand over my shoulder,

“Danny, I’m sorry, I should have trusted you”

“Mom, Dad I should have listened to you, I listened to you in every decision of my life but regarding marriage I rejected you, I’m sorry”

 I apologized to the ones who really cared about me. After my recovery I stayed with my parents. My dad inquired about Brandon and found that he was in relationship with many women, he was a womanizer. I was shocked on hearing that. I was so weak to handle such a situation. I was in confusion,

“What about the love he had on me is it fake?’

“Why he cheated me?”

“Is everything fraudulent?”

Questions twirled in my mind, the most depressing was my little baby that got aborted, and I couldn’t forgive Brandon so I decided to divorce him. Brandon on the other hand was willing to reconcile with me, he approached me many times I refused, I didn’t attend his calls or reply his messages, My friend Danny gave me courage to face such a hard situation, My parents comforted me, I strengthened myself and was ready to face the traitor.

At the present state, the Magistrate was going to announce the verdict, She declared divorce for me and Brandon,

“No, please I need Casey, I love her”

Brandon pleaded, I know that was fake and we prepared to leave, outside the court he came to me, my dad was getting ready to hit him, I prevented my dad, and stood before Brandon,

“What you need to say?”

“Casey let’s reunite”

“Before that, answer to my questions, Are you a womanizer?”

He hesitated,

“Do you have affairs with other women?”

He again hesitated,

“Well, I got answer from your face,”

 “Casey I’m sorry, I’ll change for you”

“I don’t need you anymore”

“Please, give me a chance,” he touched my hand, I was angered and slapped him,

“Don’t you ever touch me again!”

He didn’t expect such a thing from me; I went with my parents back to our home. On our drive, I tilted my head on the car window and I closed my eyes and began to erase the sad part happened in my life.