Don't Ever Be

Fortunately or unfortunately, being a lady-love had become a distant dream for Sowmiya. Now, in her mid-fifties, she thinks about her teenage days when the world looked alive with beautiful dreams. Studying in a convent, girls at that time were convinced to believe that falling in love was a sin and parents knew better than girls.

She started writing poems when she was at college during her under graduation program. Being a literature student and being a daughter to a father who loved writing stories and poems, she also started to write poems. Initially, she started to write poems inspired by poems by William Wordsworth and the Tamil poet, Bharathiyar. She still remembered days when her mother used to sing melodiously Tamil songs written by Bharathiyar. Reading poems written by Bharathiyar in Tamil, she started to love Lord Krishna. She believed no man in this world had the qualities to be her Lover and she believed only Lord Krishna fit that role.

During her college days, she participated in a poem recitation contest. She recited the English poem "The Quest" by Sarojini Naidu. It was a poem about the legendary character Radha who loved Lord Krishna deeply and never wanted to get married to any other man in the world. She was literally carried away while reciting that poem envisaging Lord Krishna near her. Not a surprise, when she got the first prize for reciting that poem. That event inspired her to write more and more poems imagining Lord Krishna to be her Lover and she felt good at heart whenever she penned a poem.