Break-point.

There are different kinds of people in this world and so are their responses to difficult situations in life. I am a very strong person. But I was not aware that even I had a breaking point and I reached it three years back. There were many reasons but what was concerning to all the people who have known me was that 'I' broke down.

Because that is not who I am!

When I reflect back on my responses, I do not repent any of them. Not one. I did not displace my emotions or act up or behave immaturely. Most of the time I was straight to the cut as the situation had caused a lot of unnecessary troubles in my life which only continued to amplify and the only thing I could do was shut myself off from the people and the place which was the reason for the turmoil. It worked for me a great deal.

Knowing myself well I knew that for the kind of toxic situation that I was in, I wouldn't have survived if I continued struggling there as it was way too unhealthy for me. Many times my family and some of my friends told me that I need to fight it out which I knew I had already done and it hadn't helped me. So, I took the decision of physically distancing myself from the chaos.

It is said that one of the ways in which our brain deals with stress and challenging situations is by intuitively telling us that we need to move away at certain times because it is aware of what we are capable up of putting up with and what we aren't. I guess my brain too did the same thing and it sort of helped me as I got the much - needed time to understand what had gone wrong in the first place and whether I could really do something about it. Later, I realized I had already done most of the things possible and there was nothing more that I could do.

Today, when I reflect upon the past, I feel, there is nothing more I 'should' do as I have realized that my need for doing the right thing and being 'just' is taken advantage of. I have also seen things in a different light in the sense that I understand that as much as I am unhappy and angry and resentful, others may also be and as much as I know that am righteous in the situation, others might not want to accept it. Thus, I have accepted the discrepancies and continue to hold my ground, as, in life, no one can ever take a stand for you.

I only wish that the situation gets better someday as I believe in having peaceful resolutions. However, I am no longer capable of putting my energy into it and quite honestly, I won't...