Ajay Part 8 Mama Or Family
Ajay Part 8 Mama Or Family
I woke up smiling. I was cheerful my heart was full. I felt like I had everything I wanted in my life. I never imagined my life like this. I never thought for a second this is what I wanted, but I realize now that this was what I was craving. My size has always been an issue with me. I'm 19 years old but am only 4'8 ft tall and weighed around 35KG's. I was teased since I was 13 years old and humiliated so many times in my life, but ever since I met Shalini, my whole life has turned upside down, for the better. She was no different, using her size and strength to make me feel small and weak, but she was different. She made me explore the deepest inner feelings that I had. She brought out all these needs that I didn't even know I wanted.
When girls in the past used to pick me up or hold me or treat me like a baby, it triggered feelings in me but never enough for me to realize what I wanted. But Shalini took it to a whole different level. She felt my desires when she held me for the first time and forced me deeper and deeper into those desires. She held me in her arms every chance she got like I was a newborn baby, talking to me like I was her child, caring for me. She punished me in ways that made her dominant, strong, made me feel like she was my mistress. She made me explore different aspects of my needs, she saw how much her feet intrigued me and forced me to explore it, rubbing her socked feet all over my face and making me kiss and suck on her foot. It was all changing me, making me want all of this forever. I didn't even remember what my life was like before this weekend. I never wanted to leave this life, I wanted to be here forever with my mommy, my mistress.
I lay there thinking about my life when I heard the door creaking open and mama walked through. She looked like she had just woken up but was still so beautiful. Her hair was tied up in a high bun, she still was wearing the same outfit from last night, her white sweatshirt with her Grey sweats along with her white Nike gym socks pulled over her sweats. "Good morning sweetheart" Mama cooed happily. "Good morning mama" I replied gleefully. "How'd my baby sleep today?" She asked ruffling my hair while I sat up in the crib. "Good mama" I replied. "Good boy" she exclaimed. She then leaned over and slipped 2 fingers down my diapers. "Baby, did you go pee-pee in your diaper?" She asked me. I didn't realize it but I did. My diaper felt wet against my butt. I must have gone in my sleep. Wow, I've never lost control of my bladder like that. I looked down in embarrassment but she lifted my head back up with her finger. "Hey, don't be shy, that's why your wearing one, to use. I told you to go pee-pee in your diaper only. Don't be embarrassed baby" she comforted me. "Now come, let's get you out of those wet diapers" she cooed gleefully. She reached down grabbing me by the armpits and held me close to her front and carried me to the bed.
She laid me down and played with my belly, gently tickling me to get me to laugh. She then grabbed a new diaper and took the old one-off. This time while changing me, she used new items, wet wipes, and powder. She wrapped the new one on tight and I felt much fresher. She scooped me back up into her arms and carried me into the bathroom. She sat me on the counter and gave me a brush to brush my teeth.l, while she did the same. We brushed our teeth, washed our faces and she scooped me back up and took me to the kitchen for breakfast. "Is my baby ready for some breakfast? " She asked. I nodded excitedly in her arms. She gave me a kiss on my cheek and readjusted me onto her hip and held me there with her one hand under my butt while she moved things around in the kitchen with her other hand. She pulled another jar of baby food out for me, but she didn't put me in the high chair today. She continued to hold me on her hip while she used her other hand to spoon up some food and feed it to me. I happily ate while she rocked me slowly on her hip while she fed me like a baby. Once I finished the jar, she grabbed a bottle of milk from the fridge and held it to my mouth. I latched on right away. "Okay baby, hold it like a big boy now," she said. I grabbed the bottle with both hands and continued drinking from it. Mommy looked at me with a smile on her face and pinched my cheek. "Ajay you are just the cutest little thing" she exclaimed and pulled my head to her shoulder so she could give me a big kiss on my head. I smiled gleefully and continued drinking on her hip.
Mommy did some clean-up in the kitchen with me perched upon her hip. I finished the bottle and my stomach started feeling funny. Not like before, this just felt like the usual urge to go poo poo. I remember what mommy said but I didn't want to risk going while she was holding me. "Mama, I have to go poo poo. Do you want to put me down so I don't go while you hold me?" I asked her quietly. She looked at me like her heart was going to melt. She pulled me in for a big hug while moving me to her front. I straddled her front with my legs and arms wrapped around her. "Oh baby, you are just the sweetest for thinking about me. I love you so much my little Ajay baby," she cooed. She then carried me into my room and placed me down on the playmat. "You do what you need to do baby boy, okay?" I nodded and she left the room, leaving me alone to do my business.
I did my business. It was easier to do today, I didn't feel as shy and embarrassed, it helped that mama wasn't watching. When I finished, I went into the bathroom and cleaned myself. By the time I was finished, mama was just getting out of the shower herself. I crawled into my room and got my new diaper on. As I was just wrapping up, mama walked in. She just showered and had her hair wrapped in a towel. She just had some shorts and a tank top on and was walking barefoot. I've only seen mama in socks the last few days but her feet were so pretty. They were big in size, atleast double mine. She had her nails painted a nice light read. She walked over to me smiling and helped me adjust my diaper. "Good job baby, you almost had it" she exclaimed ruffling my hair. "Now Ajay baby, today I don't want you to put any clothes on, I just want to see you in your little diaper today okay baby?" I nodded yes, anything for my mommy. "Good boy, now why don't you play in your room with your toys and mama will go get herself ready," she said and walked out of the room.
I sat on the floor in just my diaper playing with my hands, waiting for mommy to come back. I was getting bored and glanced over at the toy chest. I crawled over to it to see what was there. There were cool little action figures and little toys in the bin. I pulled some out and started playing with them. There was this one board that lit up and played different songs when you hit different buttons. This was entertaining. I kept hitting different buttons to hear different sounds. I was so busy playing with it, I didn't notice mommy standing by the door watching me. When I did look over, she was just watching me with a sweet smile on her face. Mommy changed into something casual. She was wearing a white Nike tank top with black shorts that hugged tight to her legs. She had on her white Nike crew socks pulled up to her lower calf area. She had her hair tied up in a bun looking very Tom boyish. Except for the fact that she had a beautiful feminine body, with thick legs(which showed off amazing with her tight shorts) slim waist, and a big upper body. Her arms were so well defined along with her leg muscles. She looked like an absolute amazon.
She walked over to me and sat down next to me cross-legged. She grabbed me under the armpits and pulled me closer to her and then lifted me up onto her lap. She placed me in the nook of her lap and cradled me tight to her body. She had me almost bent together on her lap. She wrapped her hands together around me, cradling me on her lap. She held me tight to her, my head resting on her shoulder, while she held me like a pretzel. "Oh baby, mama's so proud of you for trying so hard to accept this. Watching you crawl around even when I'm not there and playing with these little baby toys, warms my heart Ajay" Mama said. "Do you like being mommy's little baby Ajay?" Mama asked. I nodded my head vigorously. "You'll never leave Mama, will you baby? You'll be mama's little baby boy forever right?" I looked into her eyes and said "Yes mama, I'll always be your baby." She smiled and gave me a big kiss on my forehead.
She then started to stand up, while still holding me in this tight cradle. She stood right up with me hoisted in her arms tightly. She carried me into the common room and placed me on the floor. "Now you be good while mommy goes and gets her little baby boy his bottle" she cooed and went into the kitchen. I heard her rattling things in the kitchen. I just continued to sit there, waiting for my bottle.
Just then, I heard a doorbell ring. It's the first time since I started living with mama that someone is visiting. "Oh I wonder who that could be, I'm not expecting anyone" Momma opened the door and I heard her talking to someone. I crawled closer without being seen and I heard the voice. There were two people outside mama's door and I recognized their voice instantly: it was my family, my parents!!
"His uncle, how can I help you?" Shalini asked my dad. "Are you Shalini?" My dad asked her. "Yes I am uncle, can I help you with anything?" My parent's English wasn't the best but they tried their best to make their point. "My son is Ajay. He is your classmate, he is missing for 3 days. We are looking for him," my dad said, his voice breaking. Shalini however, was very confident, she stood tall and looked quite impressive in her outfit. At her 5'8 ft height, she easily stood over my parents, my dad only being 5'5 and my mom quite shorter than that. Both my parents are also quite slim. My dad, the heavier of the two was only 150lbs, my mom just topping 100lbs. Shalini was somewhere closer to 180lbs.
"Ajay...hmmm oh right that small boy right" Shalini responded to which my dad nodded. "Ohh I don't speak to him much, sorry I don't have any information about him uncle," Shalini responded politely. "I drop him off Friday evening at a friend's house, he said some girl classmate. I went to the same apartment building today and the girl there said Ajay don't come," my dad said sounding very nervous. I could understand, Shalini had a certain presence and way about her that made her look intimidating. She was standing right in front of the door with her hands crossed. "Yeah sorry uncle, I don't know much about that. I don't even know who he was trying to see," she responded. My mom was watching all this, her face at the cusp of breaking down in tears. My dad took some time to compose himself. It seemed like he was trying to think of the words to say as he wasn't too comfortable speaking this much English. "Uncle, what language do you speak?" When she found out it was Tamil, she said, "I do know a little bit of Tamil, you can speak it if you want and I'll answer back in English," Shalini said seeing his discomfort, while gently rubbing his arm with her hand. My parents looked uncomfortable with the touch but they continued.
"So you don't know anything about where Ajay is," my dad asked in Tamil. "Nope, sorry uncle, it's just me and my little boy here" she responded. "Well we were sent this picture" my dad started pulling out his phone. He held it out to her to see, I couldn't see it from my angle. "Oh yes that's me, that's me at the park with my little guy." I clued in then, that must have been a picture from the other day. Fear shot through me then, wondering what picture they had, hoping it wasn't me crawling on the floor on a leash by mommy. But it didn't seem like it as my dad continued, "That's our son Ajay beside you, that's our son" my dad said in almost a pleading voice. "No uncle, that's my little baby boy," Shalini responded. "That's not your son, that's my baby." My parent's faces were shocked. They couldn't believe what they were hearing. "I can prove it to you, come in," she said stepping aside to let them in. My parents looked at each other and walked into the apartment. They stood by the door. And then I heard the call that sent shivers down my spine.
"Munchkin!!! Come outside for mama please," I heard Shalini holler. My insides froze, she wanted me to come outside to face my parents, what was her plan, what did she want me to do. I was naked in only a diaper. I was expected to crawl everywhere, what was she planning. I was frozen on the spot, unsure of my next step "Baby!! Come out now please!" She hollered again, this time with a little more force. I knew I had to go out or else I was disobeying mommy. I was unbelievably nervous, more so than ever before, but decided to just go with it and see what happens, Shalini would have a plan, I was sure of it.
I began to crawl towards them, down the hallway, and finally in the eyesight of my parents. My parents saw me and their mouths just dropped in shock. They couldn't believe what they were seeing and I wasn't surprised. Here is their 19-year-old son crawling on the ground like a newborn in just a diaper. I saw Shalini look at my parent's reaction and smirk a little. "There's my little guy, come on, come to mama. That's it, baby, come here to mommy" she cooed at me with her arms outstretched towards me like you would a baby. My parents looked at her and back at me with absolute shock. I crawled towards her and when I got close enough, she reached down and grabbed me by the armpits and lifted me up high into the air above her head. She held me up so that my belly was right next to her face. "There's my little baby boy" she cooed and started blowing raspberries onto my belly. I started shaking in her arms in giggles. She did this for a few seconds and then lowered me onto her hip and held me there with a hand under my butt. I sat there on her hip and glanced at my parents, my dad was shocked, he wasn't even trying to hide it. My mom had tears slowly falling from her eyes. I laid my head on her shoulder and looked away. I couldn't bear watching them.
"This is my baby boy, you see how he clings to his mommy. Sorry, I don't know where your son Ajay is, it's just me and my baby here," she said rocking me slowly on her hip. My dad steadied himself. "That's our son Ajay. Ajay, what are you doing, get down from her and come with us," my dad pleaded. "Ajay chellam, why are you doing this. You are our baby, come back home please come with amma" my mom begged now tears flowing from her eyes. "Look guys" Shalini started. "Don't put thoughts into my baby's head. He's old enough to make his own decisions and know what's right for him. Munchkin" she said while raising my head up to look at her. "You're mama's little baby right?" She asked me staring into my eyes.
At that point, I didn't know what to say. I had a million thoughts shooting through my head. My parents were here in front of me watching me be babied by this amazon of a girl. Me in nothing more than a diaper sitting on this big girl's hip being talked to and manhandled like a child. And me accepting it, in fact enjoying it. I knew Shalini was trying to end this right now.I was 19, old enough to make my own decisions and she was trying to get me to tell my parents I'm happy here. And honestly speaking, I was, I didn't want to leave. I looked Shalini in the eyes and said "Yes I am." "Yes, I am...." Shalini responded. "Yes I am your little baby mommy," I said and my mom freaked out. "Ajay, what are you saying, you're 19 years old. You are our son, what are you doing. Where did we go wrong." She ran over to us and tried to pull me from Shalini's arms. I for whatever reason clung tighter to Shalini and fell back into her body. "Ajay, please, come to amma, come back to us, please chellam" she begged me while reaching for me, tears flowing from her eyes. Shalini had a strong grip on me and held me out of my mom's reach. She then reached out with her free hand to keep my mom away. "Aunty please, he's not your Ajay, he's my baby boy. Baby, do you want to stay with mama forever?" She asked me. I nodded my head and clung onto her, tucking my head into the nook of her neck. "And you like being mommy's baby right?" Again I nodded. My parents looked broken. They couldn't believe what was happening.
Shalini then set me down on the floor. She pulled a pacifier from a nearby cabinet and put it in my mouth. I just sat on the floor sucking on it. "You see, this is my baby boy and he wants to stay here. So please, you won't find Ajay here" she said walking towards the door to let them out. My mom looked at me again and burst out crying uncontrollably. My dad had tears running too. Watching them made me start tearing up, my parents were so heartbroken because of me. Shalini was also feeling uncomfortable with all this. She had a look of sympathy on her face watching my parents. She kept the front door shut and walked over to my mom. She pulled my mom towards her and hugged her. My mom, so overwhelmed with everything accepted and let Shalini hug her. I noticed then the size difference. My mom looked like a little girl next to Shalini. She was wearing a shirt and pants, but she only came up to Shalini's chin. Shalini had her chin resting on top of my mom's head and was gently stroking her hair while holding her tight in her hug.
"It's okay aunty, I'm sure your son is very happy wherever he is. Just let him be, let him be happy." That only fueled my mom's tears even more. Shalini then bent down and wrapped her arms around my mom's lower body and lifted her right off the ground. She adjusted my mom so that she was holding her in a front carry with her hands together under my mom's butt. Shalini was holding my mom like a child!! My dad's face dropped even more. Shalini was slowly rocking my mom in her arms whispering soothing words in her ear, "it's okay aunty, Shalu is here. Just let it all out. It's okay, I'm here" she said as she rocked her back and forth. She then carried her to a chair and sat down with my mom sitting on one of Shalini's legs with my mom's legs dangling between Shalini's. Shalini looked at my mom and gently wiped away the tears from her eyes. She then pushed my mom's head onto her shoulder and gently stroked her hair, while bouncing her on her leg.
"It's okay aunty, don't cry. Ajay will be fine. He's a big boy" she said glancing over at me. Shalini gave her other foot a little shake. I knew what that meant. With my parents watching, I was nervous but mommy asked for it. I crawled towards them and got on my knees in front of Shalini. She had both her socked feet planted on the ground. One free foot and the other slowly bouncing up and down with my mom sitting on it. I kneeled forward and started kissing Shalini's feet. I kissed both feet up and down from her toes all the way up to her calf. She then readjusted my mom into a cradle on her lap and then stretched both her legs out in front of me with her feet facing me. I began to lick her feet from the bottom of her heel to her toes, getting the lint from her socks on my tongue. My mom was watching from Shalini's lap in pure shock.
After a couple of minutes, Shalini put her feet down. She stood back up holding my mom in a cradle and carried her back towards my dad. She placed my mom back on her feet. "So I hope this answered all your questions. If you have nothing else to ask, I think it's time we said goodbye." With that, she opened the door for them to leave. My parents looked back at me, their faces had a look of disappointment and heartbreak. They looked up at Shalini with a look of almost fear and intimidation and then they walked away, out of my life for good.
Shalini closed the door and walked over to me. She scooped me up by my armpits and carried me to the chair. She sat down with me on her lap, straddling her front. I wrapped my arms around her neck. She slowly started bouncing me on her lap. "I'm so proud of you baby. Even with your parents here, you stayed true to mommy. You really love me that much huh?" I nodded my head vigorously. " Oh baby," she said, giving me a kiss on my head, "I don't know what I did to deserve you. You stayed so loyal to mama, mama loves you baby Ajay" she cooed, drawing me tight to her body. I laid my head on her shoulder while she held me tight on her lap, hugging me close to her.
I sat on her lap, in her arms knowing I just decided my fate. I had a choice, and I chose this life. I wanted this, I wanted to be a baby, I wanted to be treated like a baby, and I wanted Shalini to do all that to me. I wanted her to be my mommy. I made my choice, and now, I get to live the life I chose.