Ajay Part 5: Ajay's New Life

**Please read first 4 parts before reading this, required to understand the story**

I was kneeling on the floor infront of Shalini. I couldn't believe what was happening to me. Me and Shalini had such a nice intimate evening. She was being so sweet and caring to me. Consoling me when I broke down, letting me dwell deeper into my thoughts, comforting me and showing me the compassion and affection. I let go with her more than I ever have with anyone before. I encountered these feeling with Seema Akka years ago but I never gave in to those feelings the way I did with Shalini. She made me feel so at home and comfortable with myself. I let myself become the baby she was treating me as and let her be the mother to me she was trying to be. 

But I didn't expect this, I didn't expect her to hold all these things against me. She was blackmailing me. She had recordings of our whole evening, me being vulnerable and giving in to this baby side. She was threatening to share these videos with everyone. Why is she doing this. Was this whole evening a lie. I was just kneeling there on the floor crying my eyes out, not knowing what to do about my situation. 

Shalini put her phone back into her pocket and walked back and sat on the couch. "Ajay" she called to get my attention. She beckoned me over with her finger. I slowly crawled towards her, still sniffling away. When I got close enough, she reached down and grabbed me under the armpits and hoisted me up into the air and sat me on one of her legs so my legs hung inbetween hers. She put a comforting hand on my back and gently rubbed my back. She used her other hand to wipe away my tears. She then raised my head up by my chin and looked deep into my eyes, this time she was looking at me with a look of pity. 

"Whats wrong baby, why are you so sad sweety" she asked so warmly, it brought me back to our connection earlier in the evening. In between my tears, I answered "Why are you doing this? I thought we were being friendly, but you just used me and now blackmailing me. Did you not mean anything today, was it all an act to get me to do all this to blackmail me" in a muffled, breaking voice. I was expecting her to get angry, to punish me for questioning her, but she didn't. She looked almost sad, she looked at me with such pity. 

She took her hand around my back and gently pushed my head against her. She held me nice and tight to her body. "Oh baby, I didn't mean to lie to you or trick you. But from the moment you clung to me last week at school, when you wrapped your arms and legs around me crying into my neck, I knew I wanted to keep you with me. I wanted to protect you and take care of you. I've watched you get pushed around at school and teasted by the other kids and it always broke my heart watching. I only participated last week because of those guys I hang out with, it's no excuse but that's my reason. As we got further into it, I saw how sad and helpless you were. I felt sad watching you, but I also realized then that you needed a dominant person to care for you and protect you. I can definitely be that person for you." She pulled my head back and looked into my eyes. "If I just flat out asked you to be mine and let me take care of you, you wouldn't have said yes. You said no right now when I asked. But I also knew you wanted this. I felt you on my body that day, I felt you clinging to me like a baby to his mama. You wanted this, but you were to embarrassed to admit it. I wanted to show you how much you wanted this experience. But I knew it wouldn't be enough to convince you. I needed leverage to hook you in. That's why I set up cameras everywhere, to record our every movement tonight. These videos have every minute of our evening together Ajay, every single one. And trust me, it's captured every angle. Nothing was missed." Tears continued to fall from my eyes. I wanted to look down but she held my head straight looking right at her. 

"You still have a choice Ajay, but I think you know what would happen if you choose wrong" Shalini said. I built up my courage and looked right into Shalini and asked her "OK so what does it mean if I stay here with you. What is our life going to be like?" Shalini smiled, liking the direction this was going. "Like I said before Ajay, you'll be my little baby boy and I'll be your mama. Whatever I say is the way our life will go. Don't get this confused Ajay, this is not a partnership. We are not a team, I am your mistress and you are my little baby boy doing anything I say. Understood?" She asked me. I paused to let it all sink in and then nodded yes. "Good, so what did you decide?" She picked me off her lap and put me down on the ground infront of my phone and wallet. The hammer and lighter was there too. "If you want to go home, you can leave through the door right now. If you want to stay, smash your phone and light your wallet" Shalini ordered while crossing one leg over the other. She sat on thr couch with her foot wagging, watching me, waiting for me to decide. 

My mind was racing. Every possible scenario was running through my head but I couldn't make sense of any of it. Pressure was building up inside me, I was sweating like crazy, my eyes were starting to tear up from the stress. I didn't know what to do, I didn't know what was right. This decision was too big to make. I grabbed the lighter and lit my wallet on fire and then grabbed the hammer and smashed my phone over and over and until it was left in pieces. Shalini, who was watching the whole scene jumped out of the couch and scooped me up into her arms. She started planting tons of kisses all over me. "Oh Ajay, I'm so happy you chose to stay with mama. I'm so so happy baby" she said spinning me in circles in her arms. She stopped spinning and just stared at me in her arms. I was in my usual position, straddling her front. "Tell mama you love her baby" Shalini asked me lovingly. "I love you mama" I said acknowledging she now had full control over me. "Oh baby" she said hugging me tight to her body.

She then carried me to the bedroom and laid me on the bed. She got my shirt and put it back on me, but left my pants and shoes off. She quickly got a duffle bag from the closet and started throwing a few clothes and some other things in. She came back with the bag swung over her shoulder. She had on a Grey Hoodie sweater now to match with her pajama pants. She noticed the look of confusion on my face, "Were going baby. This is my friend's house. You didn't think I'd risk your parents dropping you off at my real house did you" she said with a wink. She had this whole Night planned from the moment she asked me to come over. 

"Come on, let's get going" she called over with her hand. I got off the bed but Shalini reminded me, "Ajay, what did I tell you about walking..." I realized then this was going to be my permanent life. I got on all fours and crawled my way out the bedroom door. Shalini stood behind and watched me go giggling. I got to the door looking for my shoes but couldn't find them. "Don't worry about them" Shalini said. "You won't need them." She quickly slipped her feet into a pair of white runners and then bent down and scooped me up into her arms into my usual position. "Hold on tight to mama" Shalini said. I wrapped my arms and legs around her tight. She carried me out the front door and down the stairs. She had a hand on the back of my head holding it down into her sweater. Her sweater was baggy so I couldn't make anything out around me. "Tired boy?" I heard someone say that we passed on the stairs. "Yes, my baby had a long day" Shalini said smiling while patting my head. She carried me down 8 flights of stairs and into the parking lot. She walked to a car and unlocked the back door. Here I moved my head around to see. Shalini placed me I to a car seat which was already set up. "But I don't need...." I was starting but was shushed with a pinch on the butt. "Shush" Shalini warned and I knew better. I just sat in the seat while Shalini secured me in. She then got into the driver's seat and took off. 

We drove for over an hour until she started slowing down. She pulled into another parking lot. She came around and unbuckled me from the car seat. She scooped me up again in her arms and began walking to the apartment building. We walked up another 6 flights of stairs and arrived at a door. Shalini held me with one hand while she unlocked the door with her other. We walked in to her home. "Were home" Shalini exclaimed gleefully. She kicked off her shoes and dropped the duffle bag. She then carried me into the house. She lifted me up high in the air a few times playing with me in excitement of getting home. "Come baby, let's get you some water. You must be just thirsty after all that crying you did today" she said giving my cheek and a squeeze. She carried me to the fridge and then adjusted to so that I was now perched up on her right hip. She had one hand under my butt to support me quite easily while she did everything else with her other. She opened the fridge and pulled another baby bottle out filled with I'm assuming water. "Here you go baby, open wide" she cooed and put the baby bottle into my mouth. She held it there for me while I started sucking on it like last time. "Okay baby, now it's time for you to hold the bottle like a big boy. Can you hold your own bottle for mommy baby" she asked in her baby voice. I grabbed the bottle and held it with both hands while I drank from it. "Awwwwhhhh" Shalini cooed bringing my head down onto her shoulder and giving it a quick peck. 

"Now why don't we go on a little house tour while you drink your water, okay baby?" Shalini asked. I nodded my head. She carried me on her hip to the bathroom. Regular bathroom with a bath tub. She showed me the kitchen, the hallway, the common room, same couch set up and TV ad her friends house. She then carried me to the rooms. There were 3 rooms. The first was Shalini's room, big bed, lots of space, personal bathroom, balcony. Then she carried me to the second room. "Are you excited to see your room Ajay baby" she asked gleefully.

She opened the door and walked us in and I was shocked at what I saw. The room was painted white and blue with little clouds and birds painted everywhere. There was a big sun painted on one wall with a smiley face on it. The floor was covered in colorful foam tiles like a big play mat. There was a bin of toys in one corner and a little play house in another. And at the far wall was a big crib. Not your regular crib, this was bigger, big enough to fir ME!!! I looked over at Shalini with a look of shock and fear. "Shal...I mean mama, I'd that for me" I said pointing at the crib. "Well of course silly, where else are you going to sleep. Babies sleep in cribs" she said smiling. "But I'm okay sleeping on a bed, I've always slept on a bed." Shalini looked at me inquisitively. I suddenly felt her grip on my butt get harder. It started to really burn as that was where she spanked me. "Ajay baby, if mommy asks you to do something, what do you do?" She asked. "I...I do it" I said with my head down. "Good boy Ajay, so do you have any problems sleeping in this beautiful crib mama bought for you" she asked again. "No mama" I said defeated. "Good boy" she said loosening her hold on my butt.

She walked me around the room showing me everything. Then we walked back to the hall. I noticed she didn't take me into the third room. The room had a lock on it. "Uhmm mama, what about the..." I started. "The third room? You don't have to worry about that room just yet baby. Mommy will show you when you need to see it." 

"Uhhmm mama, I have another question." "What is it baby" Shalini asked sweetly, bouncing me up higher on her hip to get better grip on me. "What about my parents, what do we tell them?" I asked her. "Well Ajay, when you left your house today, I had someone leave a note on your desk in your room. It says mommy and daddy, I love yoy a lot, you guys are very important to me, but I have to leave you guys. I need to live life on my own and grow up. I need to be a big boy. Please don't look for me, I'll come home when I'm ready, love Ajay" she said with a smile on her face pinching my cheek. It was sad hearing this from her. It hit me then the reality of the situation. That I wasn't going to see my parents again. Tears were forming in my eyes again. 

"Oh baby, don't cry" Shalini cooed, rotating me so that I was back to straddling her front. She had her hand on the back of my head holding it tight to her body. My nose was scrunched deep into her sweater. It smelled nice, like her. She rocked me in her arms, "Mama's got you, don't worry. Mama will take good care of you Ajay baby." As she rocked me in her arms, I was slowly drifting off to sleep. The exhaustion of the day, both physically and mentally were taking their toll on me. As my eyes drifted closed, I noticed the clock on the wall: 11:00 PM, my parents would have already suspected something was wrong since I didn't call yet. I saw the baby bottle sitting on the counter, the baby bottle I just drank twice from today. I felt the diaper still on me from before. As my eyes closed the full reality of my situation hit and I fell asleep. 

I woke up to the sun hitting me through the blinds. It took a few minutes to adjust my eyes to the brightness. I was tucked under a blanket. I pulled the blanket off, it had blue and pink ponies on it. I looked around to bars surrounding me. I was in the crib. Shalini must have put me in here after I fell asleep. I actually slept through the night in a BABY CRIB. I stood up to try and get out but that's when I realized the design of it. The mattress in the crib was right down to the floor and the bars were really high. When I saw it being carried by Shalini, it didn't look as big, probably because I was seeing it from the vantage point of Shalini's height being carried on her hip. But from inside the crib, the bars were taller than me. They were atleast 5ft high. There was a door that opens to get out but it was locked from the outside. She had it specifically made for me. I was much larger than a baby, standing at around 4'8 ft and weighing around 35 KGs. I was more similar to a 10 year old, and a small 10 year old at that. 

I didnt know what time it was. I did want to get out but I didn't want to wake Shalini. I also really had to use the bathroom. I didn't use it all last night after drinking the bottle of milk and water. I sat on the mattress and wait for what seemed like hours with no end in sight. I really had to use the bathroom bad now. I was struggling trying to hold it in. Finally I heard a noise from outside. A door opening, footsteps getting closer to my door and then my door opened. It was Shalini, she walked inside. It looked like she just woke up too. She had her hair tied up in a messy bun. She was wearing a baggy red tshirt and the same pajama pants from yesterday. She had her black Nike crew socks pulled up over her pants up to her mid calf level. 

"Oh my little baby's awake!! Good morning sweetie, how did my angel sleep in his new crib last night" she cooed at me sweetly. " I slept good" I said. Shalini walked up to the crib and leaned her forearms against the top of the crib bar. "Ummm mama..." I started. "What is it sweetie" Shalini asked. "Can you help me out please, I really need to use the bathroom?" "Ohhh baby needs to go potty?" She asked playfully. "Sure I can sweetie, but first, baby needs to drink some water. Its always good to have some water as soon as you wake up" Shalini said. "Uhhmm I'll have it after I use the washroom, I really need to go" I said. Shalini however shook her head, "Nope, you're going to drink it first." "But mama..." I started but Shalini interrupted me "NO AJAY" she yelled. "Who's the boss here? Who makes the orders around here?" She yelled. "You do" I whispered with my head down. "And who follows those orders without asking questions?" " I do" I whimpered. "Good, now drink" Shalini threatened, handing me the bottle. I began sucking on it. Shalini stood with her arms crossed and watched while I sucked every last drop out of the bottle. 

At this point I was ready to burst. I had to pee so bad it was starting to hurt trying to hold it in. "Good job baby. Now you stay right here and mama is going to go brush her teeth and wash her face and be right back to get her baby out" she said as she walked out of the room. I watched her in disbelief, she left me. I had to pee so bad. I laid on the mattress rolling around trying to distract myself. The pressure on my bladder was enormous. After about 10 mins, Shalini walked back into the room, looking a little fresher. "Mama, can you get me out, I really need to go, I need to go bad" I exclaimed. "Well if you have to go, just go" Shalini said with a smile. 

I didnt understand what she meant. She couldn't mean peeing in my pants. I mean I know she put me in a diaper but I'm 19 years old. I can't pee in a diaper. "No, I can pee in the bathroom, I don't need to use the diaper," I said. "Uhmm I dunno Ajay, baby's aren't potty trained. Baby's use diapers. I mean how can I trust that you won't make a mess in the bathroom if I let you go. That's why they put diapers on baby's. You like being a baby right, so just go in your diaper" she said smirking slightly. I couldn't believe what she was saying. She was actually going to make me pee my pants. "Nooo mama please, I can't, I can't pee my diaper. Please let me use the bathroom" I pleaded on the verge of tears from the humiliation and the pressure on my bladder. Shalini was shaking her head, "No, I think you should use the diaper. I wouldn't be a good mommy if I let my little baby use the bathroom before he was ready. Yup, it's settled, diaper it is." She said. Tears were now rolling down my face as I realized my predicament. She wasn't going to let me go. I was still rolling around the mattress now crying too trying to hold on. Shalini looked watched me with a look of pity. 

"Ohh poor baby, you really aren't up for using the diaper huh. I know the first time is really hard. You really want to use the bathroom don't you?" She asked me. I nodded my head vigorously, seeing that she was coming around. "Okay baby, let me help you" Shalini said and reached down to grab my armpits. She was gonna lift me out of the crib. I could finally go pee. My excitement level was rising but then she didn't lift me up. She just had her hands on my armpits. She looked at me with a smirk and said "I'll help you baby. I'll help you loosen up so you can use your diapee. With that she started tickling me. Tickling my armpits, up and down my sides, my belly, she was tickling me everywhere. I writhed on the mattress, laughing like crazy. I was losing control of my bladder as I was being tickled. Shalini didnt stop, she kept at it. "Tickle tickle tickle, ohhh little Ajay is so ticklish, such a ticklish baby he is. Tickle tickle, cmon little Ajay, let loose for mama, let go of that pee pee. Cmon baby, go pee pee for mommy" she cooed while she tickled me. I was starting to lose control. I started squirming, Shalini continued tickling and then a steady flow started coming out until I was full out peeing in my diaper. I realized halfway that Shalini put the diaper over my underwear, so now I really was peeing my pants. 

I finished peeing and Shalini stopped tickling me. I just peed my pants, I just peed my diaper. I felt the warmness of the pee against my butt and I just started bawling my eyes out. Crying out of humiliation. 19 year old man just peed his pants inside a crib wearing diapers. Shalini looked at me and I could tell what she was thinking. She realized then just how much control she had. She could literally make me do anything that she wanted. She had complete control over me. She then came over and this time did pick me up by the armpits and held me in my usual front straddle position. She had a hand supporting my butt and used the other to push my head into her neck. "Ohhh Ajay it's okay baby. I know the first time is always hard. That's why mama helped you. It'll get easier the second and third time. Now you don't even have to get up to use the bathroom, you can use it anywhere in your diaper." She said giving me a quick peck on the cheek. She then started gently rubbing my back. "Don't worry baby, mama will always be there to change you when you need it. Mama will always be here for you angel," she cooed as she gave me another peck on the cheek.

"Now, how about we go get my baby some food" she said excited. "Is my little munchkin hungry, huh is he hungry" she cooed bouncing me up and down. "Of course mommy's big baby boy is hungry. Let's go" she said as she carried me jnto the kitchen. I was in for another surprise here. Beside the counter was a high chair, what looked like a specially made high chair for bigger kids. "Look what mama put together for you, your own chair," she exclaimed excitedly. She then raised me up and down a few times and rubbed her nose against me belly making me laugh. She then held me by the armpits and put me in the chair. She lowered the locking arm and locked me into place. 

She then walked over and brought a bib which she tied around me. "Oh my goodness, Ajay you look so darn cuteee" she cooed. "I have to take pictures" as she pulled out her hone and started snapping pic after pic. I just put my head down, to embarrassed to do anything. She then came back with a jar of green baby food. She pulled a chair infront of me and sat down. She got a spoonful of baby food and brought it to my lips. "Is my baby ready for some yummy breakfast. Open wide, here comes the airplane" she said as she started making airplane noises while bringing the spoon to my mouth. I opened my mouth and she put it right in. The food tasted like paste. I almost gagged on it, but Shalini kept feeding me and kept feeding me the same way: with airplane and train noises. She purposely missed sometimes to make my face a mess. After I was done, I had the baby food all over my face and bib. Shalini had a big grin on her face and pulled out her phone for another picture. She showed it to me and I literally looked like a little baby, with the bib and the highchair and the food all over my face.

"What a messy baby" Shalini teased. She wiped my face clean with the bib and took the bib off. She then unlocked me from the high chair and lifted me out of it. She put me on her hip with a side carry and carried me to the couch, she was also carrying a bottle in the other hand. She repositioned me in her arms and sat down on the single couch, cradling me in her arms. She brought the bottle to my mouth and nudged it against my lips. I let the nipple slip into my mouth and began sucking on it. Shalini just looked at me with a smile, holding the bottle to my lips, feeding me milk. She began to hum as she rocked me in her lap. I sucked until the bottle was done. She placed the bottle away and gave my cheek a little squeeze. "Such a cutie" she whispered. And again repositioned me so she could pick me up. She lifted me up in her arms in our usual position and started bouncing me in her arms while patting my back. I let my head rest on her shoulder while my arms and feet just dangled. After about 2 minutes, I let out a loud burp. "Good baby" Shalini said gleefully. She then repositioned me back onto her hip and began carrying me to my room.. "Okay baby, mama is going to go shower, she's going to put you in your room to play OK? Just play with your little toys until mama is done, clear?" I nodded yes. "That's mama's angel" she cooed ruffling my hair and giving me a little kiss on the cheek. She then lowered me onto the ground in my room and brought a few of the toys over for me to play with. I'm 19 years old, what am I gonna do with a Tommy Choo Choo train. I just laid on the floor contemplating my life and what has happened. 

I laid there thinking for what seemed like a while but was interrupted by Shalini. She walked back into my room all showered and dressed and boy did she look great. She was treating me like her baby, but I'm still 19 years old and the 19 year old man in me found her looking super hot. She looked like she was dressed to go out. She had her black hair out and straightened. She was wearing a beige short sleeve jacket over top of a white tank top. She had beige shorts that came up to her mid thigh showing off her nice legs. She also had on a pair of black Nike ankle socks. 

"Did my big boy have fun with his new toys" she cooed at me, crouching down a bit. I nodded my head. "Good, now come to mama" She called with her arms outstretched. I remembered her orders and began to crawl towards her. "Yes that's a good boy, almost there baby, you're almost to mommy." As I got close enough she grabbed me by the armpits and raised me up high, blowing raspberries on my belly. I giggled like always, she then lowered me onto her hip. "There you go, mama's got you. Now let's get my baby ready. And we'll start by changing his diaper!!!" She said excited. She carried my to her bed and laid me down. I was more cooperative this time, as my wet diaper was making me uncomfortable. I also remembered the spanking I got from before. I let Shalimi take off the wet diaper and put on the new one. She then came back with a pair of shorts with little puppies on it and a Paw Petrol tshirt. She put the shorts on me then had me sit up and put the shirt on me. "Oh my baby just looks so adorable" she cooed. Okay come on kiddo, let's go for a walk. She picked me off the bed but instead of carrying me like usual, she put me on the floor. "Crawl for mama baby" she said. I began crawling ahead while she followed me. I heard giggling from the back, she must be thinking about how easily she could control me. That's what I was thinking about. I crawled to the door. Shalini put on her runners and then opened the closet door. She pulled out a stroller. Again, a stroller for larger kids. She then picked me up by the armpits off the floor and placed me into the stroller. I fit perfectly in the stroller. Before I could do anything, she quickly strapped me in. I was stuck, I couldn't get out. I tried wiggling but no luck. "Ajay, stop wiggling" Shalini noted. I tried unlocking the latch, but I couldbt do it. Shalini saw this and laughed. "Sorry baby, it's it's smart lock system. You have to input the smart code on the side of the latch for it to open. Otherwise no luck baby boy" she said smirking. I was out of luck again. She then opened the front door and wheeled me out into the hallway. She locked the door and wheeled us to the elevator.

"Can't wait to take you on our first walk baby" Shalini said excited. My heart was beating so fast. We were going outside infront of people. People who might recognize me. The elevator opened and we went inside. Luckily, no one else was in. The stroller had a sun cover on it, so it pretty much covered me unless someone actually looked underneath. The elevator came down to the ground floor and Shalini wheeled me outside. The sun was bright out, Shalini put on a pair of her Gucci sunglasses and she started walking down the street. She wheeled me down the street, "Feeling okay baby?" She asked me loudly so I could hear her from the stroller. "Yes" I said back. "Yes what baby?" she asked with a giggle. "Yes mommy" I said. She wheeled me into a park and took us to this lookout point at the park. When you stood there, you could see the whole park. There were some benches there too. There were quite a few people around the Lookout, I really didn't want to go, but Shalini pushed me right there on the stroller. She parked the stroller beside a free bench and then came infront of me.

She knelt down infront of me. "How was that baby? She asked while playing with my harness. "It was nice" I answered. "Well why don't we get you out and get you some fresh air huh" she said and put in the pass code to unlock my harness. "No its okay mommy, I'll just stay in this" I said too embarrassed to be seen in public in a stroller. I was sage hiding in there. "Nonsense, cmon Ajay, the weather's beautiful, let's enjoy it." I was skeptical but I decided to give it a try. I was about to climb out of the stroller when Shalini grabbed me under the armpits and lifted me right out. She picked me up and put me on her hip. 

I was beyond embarrassed. It was one thing to have it done in the privacy of her house, but out in public!! "Uhhmm mama, can I walk please, just outside? I whispered in Shalini's here. Shalini though wasn't subtle about it. "Walk? Babies don't walk Ajay. Babies get carried by their mommies don't they" she said loudly and playfully, giving me a little bounce on her hip. She then began carrying me on her hip to the Lookout. I looked around and people were glancing our direction. I mean I know I don't look 19 and look more like I'm 10 but it's also not everyday you see a 10 year old wheeled around in a stroller and carried around on a young girl's hip. Shalini definitely looked much older than her age with her size and curves buy she was quite the sight to see today. It was embarrassing being seen by all these people but inside, I was enjoying being carried by a girl as attractive as Shalini.

She carried me to the top of the Lookout and pointed out things for me to see. "Look at the trees there baby. Look at that pond isn't it beautiful" she said. Just then a little girl tapped Shalini on her back. Shalini turned us around to look at who tapped her. It was a girl, maybe 10 or 11 years old. "Hi sweetie, did you need something" Shalini asked her. "Uhhmm is he okay?: she asked pointing at me sitting on Shalini's hip. My gave turned bright red from embarrassment. "Ohh this little guy " Shalini said laughing and squishing my face with her hand. "Yes he's fine. He just likes being close to me" she pushed my head onto her shoulder to make her point more evident. "Oh I was just wondering, he seems like he's my age, I didn't understand why you were carrying him. I thought he got hurt" the little girl continued. "Oh no, not at all. He just likes it when his mama holds him. He loves it when I pick him up and put him on my hip don't you Ajay?" Shalini said. I just kept my head on her shoulder, but Shalini gave me a little bounce, "Well tell her Ajay, don't you like sitting on my hip" she asked again. I couldn't believe she was making me say this infront of this little girl. "Yes I like it" I said, my cheeks redder than ever. 

"See he loves it. Now little Ajay, why don't you tell her what your age is." I was just dying of humiliation. It wasn't as bad when everyone thought I was a 10 year old but now Shalini was making me tell the truth about my age. "Well go on, tell her" Shalini pestered. "I'm uhhh...I'm 19" I said, still hanging on to Shalini's neck. The little girls mouth dropped in shock, "19 years old!! But you're so small and you're being carried. " "It's okay, mama likes holding her big boy" Shalini piped in giving him a quick peck on the cheek. The little girl said her goodbyes and left. Shalini watched her leave and then stated up at me with a smile on her face for a bit. 

She then carried me to the bench and readjusted me so that she was holding me in a cradle and sat down with me in her lap. She adjusted me so that I was comfortably seating on her lap with my legs extended one side and my head resting on her arm. She brought her other arm over my legs and rested it on my butt gently tapping it. I did enjoy these intimate moments with Shalini, but i was very much aware of my surroundings. I was very aware of the people around us, watching her hold me like this and I was getting embarrassed. Shalini, of course didn't care at all. She was not being subtle and drawing all sorts of attention. "Such a cute little munchkin you are" she cooed quite loudly, pinching my cheek. "You're just mommy's little sweetheart aren't you my baby boy" she continued. This time, she pulled my body up a little higher and then started nuzzling my neck with her nose. It was quite ticklish, I started squirming and giggling. I noticed a few older uncles and aunties walking by, watching us and smiling. 

"Is my baby getting hungry?" Shalini asked. It had been quite a few hours since I ate in the morning and all I had was that nasty jar of baby food. I nodded my head yes. "Use big boy words baby, Is my baby hungry?" She asked again. "Yes mommy" I replied. "Mama has just the thing for you" she cooed and pulled out a baby bottle from the stroller with what looked like was milk. She brought the bottle to my lips. I started struggling, I did not want to be bottle fed in the park infront of everyone. I started moving my head and pushing the bottle away. I was kicking and struggling her arms, but wasn't having much luck as Shalini was quite strong and had a good strong grip on me. 

"Ajay, stop it right now. Don't make mommy angry" she threatened. But I didn't take any of her words in, all I had in my mind was to not be bottle fed in front of all these people. It was already embarrassing enough being kissed and tickled on Shalini's lap, but to be bottle fed too. Shalini was getting angry, I think she felt like she was losing control. She put the bottle down and suddenly spun me around on her lap. I was now laying horizontally, face down on her lap. And then I felt the familiar motions, she wrapped her left hand around my torso, locking my arms away from my lower body and put her right leg around my legs and locked her legs together, essentially trapping my legs between hers. I was now laying on just one of her legs, frightened knowing what was coming. I knew I screwed up, I was too worked up about being bottle fed in public, I didn't think about the embarrassment of being punished in public. 

"What did I tell you about following orders" Shalini said in a voice that made my hairs stand up. She was mad and I was frightened. I felt her grab my shorts and she lowered them down to my knees leaving me over her knee with my diaper exposed. Many people stopped around us to see what was going to happen. I started pleading with her, already humiliated, "Please mama I'm sorry. I didn't mean to, I just got carried away, please don't, pleasee" I begged and pleaded. "How many times have I told you the rules" she said coldly. "How many times did I tell you, you follow my orders." I was in tears now, from the humiliation, the potential punishment that I was going to get, and from Shalini being angry with me. I felt myself developing a bond with her, A dependency with her. It made me sad when she was upset or angry with me. I get really happy when she plays with me and shows affection to me. 

"I'm sorry, please forgive me, pleaseee" I begged, now balling my eyes out on her lap. She suddenly lowered her leg, releasing mine from her hold. She also lifted her arm, freeing my upper body. " On your knees now" she ordered pointing to a spot on the floor right infront of her. I reached down to pull my shorts back up, but she stopped me, "NO, on your knees right NOW" she yelled, I dropped that second to my knees, kneeling inbetween her legs. 

She leaned forward now close to my face still very angry. "What did I tell you before. What have I made perfectly clear to you. What I say goes. I'm in charge" she yelled loud enough for everyone around to hear. I stayed kneeled on thr ground infront of her with my head down crying. My shorts were down to my knees and all I had on was my shirt and my diaper. I must have been some sight to see. "I know you want to be a baby, but that doesn't change the face that you're 19 YEARS OLD" she yelled causing me to flinch. I heard whispers from the people around us, they just took in that I wasn't a 10 year old boy, but a 19 year old man in diapers being carried around. I didn't dare look around. I just hung my head in embarrassment, continuing to cry. 

"I thought a 19 year old man would be able to remember basic rules, but you continue to disobey me. That WILL NOT HAPPEN, understood?" Shalini yelled making me flinch and cry even more. I nodded my head vigorously in between my tears. She then crossed one leg over the other and began wagging her foot like yesterday. My eyes were instantly drawn to it. Even between my tears, Shalini's beauty shot through my mind. With her shorts on, her whole leg was visible from the mid thigh down. Her legs were smooth and thick. Not fat, but fit. Bare, smooth, and a silky brown shade all the way down to her foot, she had white running shoes on and you can see her black ankle socks peaking out from the top of her shoe. 

Shalini looked at me and said "What, nodding your head isn't enough. Beg for forgiveness." She ordered. I instantly started groveling, begging her to please forgive me, I grabbed her foot and Groveled to it, begging her to please forgive me. She let me beg for 5 minutes and then pulled her foot away from me. She leaned forward and grabbed my face with her hand and pulled my head towards her. I looked around and saw that people were still watching us with looks of shock and interest. Some were even recording on their phones. Shalini didnt seem to care though, she looked as though she was enjoying it, showing me who was dominant infront of everyone. 

She pulled my face towards her, tears still running down from my eyes. "Did you learn your lesson?" She asked me. I nodded my head yes. "Will you ever disobey me again?" I shook my head hard NO. She pushed my face away and stood up. I stayed in my position with my head down crying. Shalini walked to the stroller and pulled out something from the back. She came back over to me with the stroller and tied something around my neck. "On all fours right now" Shalini yelled. I got down instantly and then I saw what she did. She tied a leash on me. One end was tied around my neck and the other end was in her hand!!! "I don't think you've learned your lesson yet, but you will after this" she said smirking. "You misbehaved today, so I'm going to train you like a little puppy dog to learn how to behave" she said with a big grin. My heart was shattered. This humiliation was beyond anything I felt in my life, beyond yesterday. "Now let's go home" she said and gave the leash a pull. The leashed tugged on my neck I flinched and started crawling through the grass as Shalini led with the leash in hand. Everyone was watching us and recording us, tears were rolling down my eyes as I crawled to Shalini's lead too embarrassed to look up. 

She would pull on the leash when I was too slow and I would feel the jerk on my neck and crawl faster. People would call out to us because of how random it was. "Oh don't mind us, just walking my little puppy" Shalini would respond gleefully. "Oh hi, no no just taking my little puppy dog for his daily walk" she told one lady who asked about us. One lady stopped us concerned as to what was happening to me "Oh don't worry, he's really 19 years old, but has been doing very bad things. So I'm just teaching him manners and how to treat a lady. Isn't that right baby?" Shalini said to the lady and then looking at me. I nodded yes which satisfied the lady. A bunch of girls hooted and cheered for Shalini, telling her that's how you control your man and way to keep your man in check. A little girl walked towards us looking confused at what she was seeing. "Hi sweetie, don't be scared, he's just a little puppy dog. Look you want to see him do tricks?" She asked the little girl who nodded happily. "Okay little Ajay kneel for me baby?" She asked me. I looked at her in horror, she really wanted me to do tricks. "I said kneel for me baby" she said more forcefully. I got back up on my kneesand held my hands forward like a puppy kneeling. "Good boy Ajay" Shalini said ruffling my hair. The little girl was ecstatic, she loved it. "Okay Ajay, now roll over. Cmom roll over for mama" She cooed. I rolled over in the grass to more cheers from the little girl. "Now bark for me baby cmom bark" she said. I couldn't stop my tears, but I also couldn't disobey Shalini, I made barking sounds for her. The little girl was so happy. Shalini pinched her cheek, said bye and kept walking me. 

We eventually got off grass and onto pavement. My knees and hands were so sore. The gravel was cutting into my knees causing blisters. The pain was making me cry more but I just kept my head down and continued crawling. We eventually got to the apartment building. Shalini walked me to the elevator and we took it up to our room. She walked me inside. She took off her shoes and walked me to a chair I the dining area. Shalini sat down and had me kneel right infront of her inbetween her legs. 

She grabbed my face in her hand and leaned down towards me. "Now what did you learn today?" She asked me looking me right in the eyes. "I learned that you're the boss and that I will never disobey anything you say. I will do everything you say" I responded in a cracking voice inbetween my sniffles and tears. "That's right, because I own you now. I'm your boss. I'm your master, your mistress. You follow my orders like my little baby slave, correct?" She said staring into my eyes. "Yes" I said, absolutely defeated. "Say it Ajay, yes what" she responded. "Yes mama, your my master and I'm your baby slave" I said crying into her hand. That looked like it satisfied her. She had a big smirk on her face. She knew then that she had complete control over me. That she now owned every bit of free will I had. 

"Okay come now" she said as she grabbed the leash and walked me to the rooms. This time she walked me to the third, locked room. She took a key from her pocket and unlocked the door. "You know little Ajay, I didn't think I'd have to show you this room on just our second day together. I thought you would have been more obedient. The little boy that clung to my arms last week, I didn't think he would have been so disobedient, but here we are. It's okay, nothing mama can't handle. We'll get you all trained up and be a good boy for mommy." She then leaned over towards me with her hands on her thighs. " You ready to see what's in the room baby?" She asked gleefully. She opened the door and walked me in and my body began to shake.

Inside the room was a cage, a cage you would keep your pets. It was about 6 ft long, 4 ft wide and maybe 3 ft tall. Inside the cage was a blanket on the floor and a little container in the corner filled with what looked like water. There were another 2 bowls outside the cage. I looked up at Shalini and she was looking down at me with that same smirk. I couldn't even cry at this point, I had no tears left. "Well what do you think? This is your home for today!" Shalini said gleefully. I looked up at her with pity eyes but she only laughed. "Ohh how fitting, you're giving me puppy dog eyes. I told you Ajay there will be consequences for disobeying my orders. That won't happen anymore and I'll be making sure of that today. I thought of spanking your little butt silly at the park today. I thought of wrapping you up tight so you couldn't move and just smacking your butt until it was red and bruised and you were laying on my lap a crying mess. So you could feel the sting everything you sit down. But you feel humiliation more than physical pain don't you. Being humiliated, embarrassed by girls is what really breaks you on the inside. I know it baby, I see it. I saw it last week when we stripped you down infront of everyone and you just unraveled into my arms like the little baby you are. Well, this is me using that to teach you." I was broken, she was right, this did break me. "Now come on, let's get you in my little puppy boy" she giggled. She opened the door to the cage and walked me by the leash towards it. "In you go baby" she said giving me a push with her foot, nudging me inside the cage. Once I was inside, she locked the gate shut. "There's water in the bowl if you get thirsty" she yelled behind her giggling while turning off the light and leaving the room. I heard her lock the door shut. She left me in the dog cage with my diapers, my shorts still hanging at my ankles. I was completely defeated. I sat there in the dark, in the cage and just started crying. Tears I thought I didn't have left, started streaming out, I laid down on the floor, on the blanket and just cried. Cried and cried, with no idea what to expect next.