Unrequited

Watching made me know,

Observing made me feel,

Talking made me mad,

Feeling made me scared.

One look and I drown,

Drown deep, so deep that

Coming back up is, but a dream.

Too bad it was only me,

Never you.

A smile, that’s it.

A big grin, alright.

A beautiful look, so bright,

That it warms me inside and outside,

Only if you knew, how much

I want you

To be happy, loved,

To be safe, away from me.

If only.

Never could destroy us,

Never could tell it out,

Never could call out aloud,

Never could let you know;

Only keep it in my heart,

A little thing in my mind.

A beautiful one,

A beautifully dangerous one.

A secret.

I can’t keep it any longer.

It hurts me to see you with others.

It kills me inside,

It burns like a brand in my mind.

One single time,

Just one chance,

To cherish you, to love you,

More than they ever did,

More than they ever could.

It all remains;

A sweet fantasy,

Unrequited.