Success

It’s been a long walk.

A journey of miles.

Exhaustion overwhelms me from time to time.

I see people on internet,

With their pieces of success.

I feel sad.

Not out of jealousy.

But out of my expectations.

Seeking validation, I often try to be everything.

And end up being nothing.

I often feel lost.

Like I have always been on the wrong track.

I often question myself because I have become so old.

For the kids of my age have achieved what I have not.

It is not jealousy.

But it is the feeling of unworthiness which follows me often.

I cry often.

The nights are chaotic,

my mind doesn’t know how to stop.

These hopes are weighing down my shoulders.

The weight is too heavy to carry.

I often think of disappearing.

But wouldn’t that be cowardice?