Sixteen

When you left

I realized I was never a reason for you to stay

When you were gone

Remembering you seemed wrong

When you said goodbye

I knew your love was a twisted wildfire lie

I thought I would die

When you said you needed time

I wish I never called you mine

When you weren't there for me

You said you were busy

Should have never believed

To get me deceived

By your selfish dirty tricks

Your circumstances had consequences 

When your truth was hidden behind your faces

Now you are someone better so new

I made that happen

I never had a clue

You were the false god

I was the victim of the moon

Hope you will realize it soon

How my blind faith and your dirty games

Destroyed my tune

When you told her

You didn't care

If I died 

Or disappeared

I learned you never loved me the way I did

Guess I was a toy you enjoyed playing with

When you were bored 

You used to tear me to pieces

Once it was fun

Now I am the one who's needing stitches

Once you told me

I looked pretty

When I looked like a mess

Now your game is over

I feel insecure

Getting depressed

Long were the nights when my days once revolved around you

Counting my footsteps Praying the floor won't fall through 

I wanna hate you

Just the way I loved you

But I cant redo myself 

U seem so brand new 

How easily you forgot that I existed

Once you said it would kill you

But it didn't

You seem perfectly fine

Ss you were never mine

I belong to a different timezone

Someone you have never known

I once belonged to me

I was better alone

Dancing on my feet

But u came along

Stole my kingdom 

Looking at you now seems wrong

You got me all alone

You were the paradise 

You told a joke

I fake a smile

Now you turned down my sunrise

You got me broke

When I gave you butterflies

He wasn't broken but bent

But used to pretend

 I Should have known

Now I am the one to blame

What a shame

In front of her, he claimed

I was the one seeking attention

Better to wait

Time you regret 

For not giving me proper affection

It was not subtle

When you got me in trouble

For all your wasted crimes

Guess you never realized

I was just being civilized

Kind maybe humble

I never forget how you got up and left

In fact, it was downright pretty low

Someday you will find your counterpart

Must be a damn good show

Memories were wonderful to be made

Now painful to remember

Each and every day I go through the tide

Go back to December

Everywhere I go

Your reflection crosses my mind

Just wanna forget the time you belonged to me

Wish I could go blind

It took me a while to figure out

Lasted forever is not true

Never knew one could change this much

Out of the blue 

Behind my smile 

There's an ocean of tears

Cause you snatched my freedom

Out of my fears

Beyond your happiness and glory 

Lies my patience and victory

It was a once a fairytale

Now I am a damsel in distress of your story

And look you were ungrateful

Now you are not sorry

All my feelings and emotions 

If I could suppress

Still stuck in between loneliness

Wannabe that one less lonely

Significant other than only

But people are always leaving

Cause they are afraid to get rejected and feel insecure

So they leave before 

When you knocked at my door

Said you will love forevermore 

While you were halfway out the door

I felt our waves never crossed the shore

I never heard silence quite this loud

You were What I was all about

Now that you are my past 

Seems we were never supposed to last

I was the one who asked you to watch Emerson heights

Now I am tangled up in your hindsight

You made my heart skip a beat

Could only talk about loss and defeat

You were Mr. almost to the misfit

No strings attached to disinherit

Those late-night conversations with little white lies

At 3.05 staring at the purple skies

Unconditional love and splendid unfulfilled promise

 Deep Regrets and your storylines

Your future plans and my bad times

Were those unreal like you?

When you think of me do you get deja vu?

I can't decide which is worse

Losing you within a second

Or loving you was a curse

Maybe I was doomed for a heartbreak 

Your words were sharper than a sword

Maybe I was a pain in your neck

Or a wreck you left behind

And I learned to forget 

But I can't seem to get you out of my head

You were my foremost priority

But I should have seen

And known when your words gave me no dignity

You were full of drama and bloody games

So dont get triggered if I call you names

Thought you were my one in a million

Now you are just a page torn from the story I am living

Maybe you got pushed around someone made you cold

But you were casually cruel in the name of being honest as your exes told.

Lasted forever but ended so soon

Wish I had known you before it was June

Now you are the song I have never heard before

But I keep singing a song that doesn't exist anymore

Your eyes were full of lies

The enemy in the name of love in disguise

You never looked back 

Waited for my tears to dry

You will never know what you put me through

Cause you are the one to torture in name of rescue 

My heart will never be the same

Cause some stone-hearted liar got it tamed

Whose photograph I got there framed 

 Still, I am the one to blame

You betrayed me

But you were not sorry

You played me

By keeping the lines blurry

Still expect me

To go down my knees

Beg forgiveness at your feet

You pointed out my weakness

I am sensitive. Smallest things hurt me

Accusing others is your sickness

Guess u didn't know my strength

Little things too please me

But you will never know

How my kingdom of love collapsed

When you showed me your wrecked heart

Cause I was just a clown long twisted show

Cornelia Street is a walk to remember 

10 reasons to hate you would be a disaster

Cause I will never run out of them

Titanic was fine

Unless you were mine

My moose ate my willow stem

Loving you was red

Until you got me faded

You were the captain

I was your mate

Now my wounds are affected

Echoes of your footsteps

That is what I used to hear on my doorsteps

But honey nothing good starts in a gateway car

I am tired of the bruises and your given scars

Nothing breaks like a heart 

The summertime we spent together

Your ocean seemed like a desert

I was a bird in your cage without a feather

I was never ready for it

You were so sure

You left so early

What made you so insecure?

Dont know why you were in a hurry

Didn't seem confused

But when I was at my worst

I wasn't the one you choose

Every story ever is so complicated

I wish we never dated

When you looked at me and said I was the girl of your dreams

Ì believed you

Now that you are great 4.05 my heart hears my silent screams 

No one will love you the way I did

No one

You will get nothing but defeat

If you look for one

No one will smile at your dirty jokes and

Insane talks

No one will make you feel at home

Do you hold her the way it used to be?

Does she know that once you were with me?

When you hold hands and walk down the streets

Does she make you feel complete?

I am not jealous of her

I don't wanna be her

I am fine as I am 

I am the destiny of my star

Which will never fall 

All I want is the one 

Who keeps his vow

Never shades my glow

Maybe it's your trait 

To give love and take it away

How could you forget I gave you a ride

When you were nothing but a stray

Now we called it quits

You seem so fine to be okay

The story of us looks like a tragedy now

Never imagined you would let me down

There is a fire inside my soul

I can't let it burn

It keeps me fine and is so cool

And I know it will never return

You seemed golden as daylight

Just like the silence before the storm

I see you crying in hindsight

Like a host without a worm

Out of the woods

Laid your peace

You tapped on my windows

With your silver keys

First, you made food

I couldn't eat

Now I am awake in your thoughts

How easily You sleep!

Rumors were never true

Cause maybe I never loved you

If I really cared

I would never fall for anyone so untrue

One day You will find me shining like a star

Who is not afraid of going down

I will go so much far

You won't be able to see my crown

I will be glowing above the sky

Like the spars fly

It will be so pretty 

And so much fine

You will regret your timeline

I will regain my honor

Which you stole and let it sink

What made things go wrong?

I will force you to think.