Heavy

This heaviness burns inside my heart like forest fire

Amidst the ashes still stands a green desire.

To find the one i want to sit beside under this shade

To put my head on her lap and wake up to her face every day.

The roots of my hopes runs deep into the past

When an anxious boy was still a child wanting a happiness to last.

A child who saw his parents fall out of each other,

Who decided to treat his one, like he wished father treated his mother.

Who spent his childhood feeling lonely

To love, to be loved was his wish only.

What do i do with these giddy thoughts?

Why in my dreams, you're the one i sought.

And to go away from you if i decide

My will is broken by your innocent smile.

Falling for you is not an option

It's something my heart did of its own volition.

So here i am in this room bearing your name

The walls of which are love stained,

Furnished with my hopes and feelings

And a locked door barring your entry.

The lock, this cruel reality.