Please Forgive Me
Please Forgive Me1 min 31 1 min 31
Walking down the aisle,
I should have felt elated,
But all I felt was despair,
In me, I felt only hated.
I felt numb,
I felt paralyzed,
I didn't feel like moving forward,
I was utterly depressed and terrorized.
All around me was happiness,
But it didn’t reach me,
All I could feel was the sorrow,
Of that one person, who was absentee!!!
I felt guilty,
I could only cry,
Because I have left the person I love,
And have said to him, "goodbye".
I love him more than anything,
I want to be with only him,
But I don’t have the courage in me,
To defy my family's whim.
I want to fly away,
I want to leave this society,
I just want to be with him,
And leave this numbness and anxiety.
I raise my eyes upwards,
In a silent prayer to god,
Like Draupadi prayed to Krishna,
Waiting to get out of this pod.
I feel like I have cheated on him,
By not being brave enough,
I should have fought more vehemently,
From my family, & told them bluntly,
“I will not succumb to your desires, I have my own life."