Numb

When did I stop trusting life?

When did I stop wanting to try?

When did I stop feeling the things

That had held me together all this while?

Pain is my only companion these days,

The rest has become background noise,

Even the reassuring lies have started to fade,

Why can't I recognise my own voice?

Can someone teach me how to feel again?

I'm tired of this poker face,

If there was a 'quit' button as in a game,

I'd press it every single day

I'm tired of feeling numb about the things that once made me happy,

If I cut a

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bit deeper next time, maybe the pain will be able to remind me?

Screams fill up the void as tears stream down my cheeks,

Messages from friends fill my phone yet why do I feel so lonely?

How pointless, does life even have a meaning?

We're taught to be better our entire lives but even that won't ever be enough,

Busy in their own mazes, no one notices me screaming,

Is ignoring others to win the race really what all of us were striving for?

Too tired ? Want to complain?

Don't you know your troubles are much "too small",

Get ready to feel the judging stares again,

"If that is tough for you, you are not struggling at all!"