I Don't Want To Anymore

Nights and I go back a long way

We had each other’s backs when everyone else would stray.

The drop-dead silence and I talked for long

We always knew what to say to each other, there was no right or wrong.

The moon was never too dark or too bright

That kind of glow was something foreign to the pinching sunlight.

In the dark, I found some sort of solace

It made me blind to the wrinkles on my face.

Nights and I have known each other for long

But now I know that nights and I, don’t belong.

The drop-dead silence is now deafening

Whatever it says to me, seems life-threatening.

The glow of the moon now leaves me with a feeling I rue

It is a trap I would escape if I knew how to.

The darkness makes me feel lost

Walking in it comes at my life’s cost.

I fell into the embrace of the stilly night

And now I try my best to fight

But the darkness knows all my tricks

It knows what will I say before words slur out of my lips.

This trap pains me and those who pull me out of it

I wonder if the daylight will ever deem me fit.

The more I try to climb out of this pit

The deeper I seem to fall into it.

Regardless I crawl my way out

For someday there will be sound to my silent shout

Someday the nights will let go of me

Someday my heart will beat shackle free.

Maybe one day I sunk to the bottom

And maybe there I once found solace

But when I will be near-forgotten

That is when I resurface.