Healing or suffering?

Time will heal everything they said

But they never said how much time

A month? A year?A decade?A lifetime?

Here I am, stuck in the very moment that messed up my life.

I don't want to heal anymore

I want to live

I can't live without being healed

This regular anxiety makes my throat sting

My hand shiver

Chest hurts

Is this healing?

Or is this even living. ?

Am I ever going to live?

Or am I going to spend all my time "healing"?

Truth is, I haven't lived in past year and a half.

Healing can't be living

Is healing the new name for suffering?