Do Not Judge Me

I am one of those people 

that are labeled as an addict.

I am judged, I am doubted, 

yeah I do not doubt it. 

I am the one that you

Tend to call a friend.

But when I am not around, 

All that you do is just pretend.

I am the one that you

say you cannot trust.

Yet I am the one that is 

first to clear the dust.

You say that I am angry

but it is passion that speaks,

To hell with keeping calm

when I am the feast!

Violence is not the answer

but neither is peace,

I am addicted to a life that is not so bad

only because it is all I have ever had.

Addicted to the times that

have not really changed.

It is not the lifestyle, as the living,

that has been re-arranged.

From the streets to a cage

from the cage to the streets,

It is the grind that allows me to be free

Watching out for you and me.

Yet I am the only one with

cuffs on these hands,

Because you are my people

and I protect my brand. 

Call me crazy, call me careless

But remember who I am,

I am the one that carries your stress

and I am the one that keeps shit real.

I am the one that would give up

my own life and wheels,

I trust nobody because I refuse

to be fooled ever again. 

Do not blame me

But blame those gosh darn sins,

I believe in things that you cannot give

I hate all that are the reasons that you live.

I am that addict in case you forgot

Nothing more than a lost soul,

Just spinning my wheels

while also digging a hole.

I cannot find a reason

so I cycle just like the seasons,

l cannot find a cure

so I am forced to endure.

Day in

and day out

Caught between the floods

And all of the droughts.

Never the less,

I am such a damn mess,

But not as you are,

for you are the one that is scarred. 

Hiding is not

the same as avoiding,

Acknowledging is not

the same as exploiting. 

Go ahead and judge me,

but not before you judge yourself,

Feel free to fear

but not for what you know.

We all cannot believe

when we all fight to retrieve,

What it is that makes us bleed

The difference is only a matter of beliefs.

The reality of what we not know

is truly our grief,

I am addicted to life and

not much on living right.

I am much too quick to test

and my standards are not realistically best,

Kind of like you

and how you doubt who I am.

We are two of the same

we are only trying to understand,

So do not try to understand me

and I will do the same.

I am an addict remember,

and atleast I own what I try to tame,

Addiction chose me 

and I do not choose to abuse.

I am powerless, I cannot win

because I was born to lose,

But my message is real

and although I choose to conceal

how I sometimes feel,

It is only because you choose

to undermine me 

and my ability to heal.

Ignorance and stupidity

are not reasons to judge,

And your unable to change

because you are holding a grudge.

Pain is my life

Love is my light,

Living to fight

For the fight is my right.