Break Once Again

Sore throat, tears and darkened eyes,

Muffled sobs and the constant battles raging inside.

Why's all this blood here? 

Accompanied by what? pain?!

Oh shoot! 

I'm breaking once again..

"No-no-no", I tell myself,

"This isn't right, I can't just lose,

In what I take pride."

But maybe, just maybe, for a little while,

I'll keep walking in the soaking rain.

In peace, I'll let myself break once again..

In future lie all good things they say,

On the contrary my past, 

Haunts me every single day.

I may be at fault here I know,

But, easier said than done is "let go."

And some lonely nights,

I'd just take that one name,

Not under false hopes, 

But just to take the blame.

I messed up big time, 

By going against my brain.

And now, I feel myself, breaking..once..again..

I have extinguished all fires,

For, I need to lay low.

Heartbreaks are an isolated affair,

No one needs to know.

In my privacy, I feel ashamed,

I'm sorry, my heart,

For letting them play games,

I apologise..for breaking you once again.

I know this isn't the end of life,

Much happier than this episode awaits.

It's just a chapter that I had to thrive,

To meet the bigger picture, to embrace my fate..

I just hope the remnants soon fade away

Through all of the misery, 

I'll smile because I am just that insane,

Beautifully, I'll break and build myself..once again..