ADDICTION

I am addicted in hiding the addiction

Of always looking for approval

The way I seek for approval from others

Is like the way an actual drug addict

Seeks satisfaction from a drug.

 

I'm addicted in hiding this addiction

The addiction runs deep

Such that even if I convince myself

I deserve the positive comments I receive from them

I convince myself that I am worth those compliments

 

I'm addicted by this addiction

I cannot even give myself one compliment

And be satisfied with it.

Without someone else verifying it.

I always feel the need to be told I am beautiful

Because it is not enough coming from me.

 

I am so addicted

That when no one pays attention

To how lovely and attractive I look

I feel anxious

I feel like there is something missing

I feel incomplete.

 

I am so addicted

I hide it so well

That even when I drop that subtle 'thank you'

You don’t even realize

That you have made a world of difference.

 

I'm so addicted to this addiction

I walk with my shoulders up high

Knowing that nobody is seeing what I’m hiding

Because I’m doing such a good job concealing it.

 

I walk with pride and dignity

That whenever I walk into a room

Everybody envies me

Boys gets intimidated, girls get jealous

Little do they know that I’m hiding an addiction

Of concealing this addiction.

 

I'm so addicted

Like an addict feeding the habit

I find pleasure in hiding this addiction.

because it takes me high

 

I'm so addicted in hiding this addiction

I seem to ooze confidence

Positive energy radiates from my body.

But that is nothing short of an attempt

to conceal this addiction.

Because I am just too addicted to hide this addiction