Wings After Marriage

It was the day I woke up with no enthusiasm and had no goal to go for. I had never felt this way before and I started pondering over what I had left behind. As I never knew that even after marrying in a good family. I feel so empty, what was it and why? Well ignoring such feel I got up and opened my cupboard for taking towel and suddenly something felt so hard on my feet. I looked down and my eyes looking at it took me a year behind. Actually it was my notebook.

I started turning the pages ;with each page the jar of my heart was getting filled with thousands of emotions it had my own written poems,fiction stories and article and cuttings of. The best articals I used to like. It felt me with happiness of reconginising something that was my own and then I suddenly I saw a line which could not stop my tears; the feel I woke up with and used to feel often was on edges,that sentence was. "I will fulfill my dream anyhow God- I will be a writer will try to be as good as you papa."

I closed the notebook with disappointment so hard and gave went to my feelings that I was buried into.I realised the emptiness was nothing but giving up of my dream which I had dreamt of all my life. Just because I was married and was a girl who is always thought to sacrifice dreams and should only have the aim to be a perfect house maker the society demands. But no one realizes that a person needs to be self happy and contented first in order to make others happy. I realised that this decision of choosing my husband and his family over my dreams had made me a person who was given wings by God to fly and catch your dreams. But who has decided to get them smashed by others.

I know what I was about to do now, could cost me my marriage but living a life not meant for dreams is indeed death. I took that notebook and decided to go for my making my identity and was ready to pay whatever it takes ;

I wish one day my husband and everyone realizes it too.