Alone Crowd

Abstract

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Alone Crowd

Abstract

Window Vacation

Window Vacation

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It's been a while now, I've stranded my self on the lone island, where no one understands the apathy of salty water and raw food!!! Quite like the monotony, I found my self engulfed in ... Nothing seems to be working nothing seems to not, too ... Where I have answers to all but no questions.


It was just another morning when I decided I have to go ... Somewhere ... Started the day lazily and I don't know how and when does it happen that the entire rage of existence in the morning falls flat to a crisis by the evening!!! So I gathered my feet together to slide in my every day but fresh new breezing sleepers icing blue as if the morning sky had to find its inception in them ... I woke up walked my self towards my life ... And there it was ... Right amidst the break of dawn ... And I walked past relying on the opinion about today I had, since my age.


You know, there is a problem with sarcastic people ... No good ever happens to them, or may I say no good is worth enough ... It's like the window is open and you can spit as far but there's ocean all around and who needs the extra salt ... Nevertheless, I walked towards the hall to acknowledge my existential mid-life, with a smile but ... Of course, none noticed ... None to do ... But I did ... The relish of look forward towards the day ... And believe me, it's the scariest cause now I know I have plenty to lose ... It is a scarce feeling after all ... You don't get that gratitude every day... So usually it's my glass of water which seeks mercy from the gulps in the morning ...


But this day ... Today, I was happy, with a reason ... I had a word with her ... She was a nobody then ... Is none still ... But that day it was fresh ... And I did not know it then that it won't work ... I have high hopes still though, but whom am I kidding ... I jinx my own happiness !!! I wonder sometimes... Is there a way or can I hide my own happiness from myself, but for that too I'll have to know it is my happiness, and there you go ... I will overthink the frog's dive in the ocean too hard that he shall never leave the pond !!! More than the gigantic good that I think shall prosper if the pond is escalated to the ocean but the pond has its own nature of existence and the ocean is merely an endless closure of wishes ... Where the eventuality is a dark turn to your own destiny which was River of its own stride !!!


Nevertheless, my walk towards the washroom cannot or rather should not be as philosophical ... But was it just a walk to the washroom or was it the momentum griefing inertia attracting me to life with its arms wide open !!! You see, this is one of the problems with a person of my step cycle, every motion has to be calculated for it's worth of my existence, which is anyhow in crisis, of course being a separate issue if at all ... if it ever becomes an issue ... Cause overthinking although a beautiful ranging Forest with green sky and white leaves pink darkness and silk stars angel fragrance and yellow bushes ... Has a hollow path towards the black hole ... It leads you nowhere irrespective of how far you walk, but a walk to remember!!! The lead to the causation of all leads too!!!


I was listening to Shiv Kumar Batalvi an excellent poet, by the way, that day when he recited what his native had recited prior which probably was his own experience I hope to find its origin ... But he said that every intellectual shall be in existential crisis ... For that, is his intellect!!! Now I believe that the crisis is real, but the reality is a palm faced question!!! And all answers wish to leap ahead of answering it ... Cause beyond every difficult answer lies the meadow of roses!!! Ironies ... Isn't it? The only question which gives everything its meaning has its meaning beyond itself!!!


Anyways ... So I have now rejoined with my excessive content of water ... Which desperately requires freedom ... Alas ... What a relief ... I think most of the people don't really understand the magnitude of its elevation ... It's like gods giving a meaning to your life ... Freedom of expression ...



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