We Were So Dumb

Her love hurts

I always wanted more but it was never enough 

Because I knew that soon enough  she would be gone

That night  I read her a poem telling her the things I loved about her 

I didn't read that to her because I thought we were going to open a new chapter in our lives together   but because I knew that  that chapter was soon to close  because of her

 I had a hunch for quite a while and every time we saw one another we grew more and more apart. It just didn't seem like we were talking to our best friend. But felt like we were talking to a stranger  we have never met before 

 and we became more and more distant with one another.

I had a feeling that visit would be her last and sadly it was. I had this feeling and I should have listened  now there's no us 

We were so full with all of our love  but we were so dumb

I read her that poem that night so that she could know that our relationship meant something to us even though it didn't mean anything to her. I wanted her to know how much she meant to us

so that when she left 

she had something to think about 

So that she knew that finally after all of our friendship together 

10 years down the drain

After us being in pain time and time again  because of her, she would finally understand  what we went through for 

so long. 

Because for a while we were the Three Musketeers but now 

we don't know her and the reason I know that  is because usually when I tell her things  that really touch her heart she shows it through her emotions

She usually breaks down into tears because she loved it so much but when she reacts  all she did was laugh making it seem like it was some stupid joke with her not knowing that I had 

Written that poem almost a year prior to

Me having read it to her 

And I had been looking forward to reading it to her because I thought she would react in a kind loving way as she usually does

 I was having a really bad day that day . and I really needed that reaction from her and I was hoping if I read that to her and she reacted as she usually did  my day would turn from  Sad to glad

But my day just went from sad to depressed 

A depression I can't seem to get out of because I knew right then and there

 I had lost my best friend

Someone I no longer recognize anymore that's how I know that she's not the same