Transparency In Relationships

I have a Christian friend whose name is Edwin(name changed). He is really awesome as well as an adorable friend. I really admire him a lot. But I did a huge mistake in his case for which now I am facing severe punishment. It was completely my mistake that I literally avoided having any kind of conversation with him because at that time I really didn't feel that it was so important. So I rarely used to talk to him. Initially, I never used to understand his English because of his weird tone but later I started understanding. But still, we never used to talk much then. Later one day, one girl almost 2-4 years younger than both of us came and we started talking and getting closer to each other.

Actually, talking to each other like friends and we were no more formal like before with each other. That was really a blissful moment in my life but later on, when I told one of my college colleagues, that was my huge mistake. I shouldn't have done that but I did it just because, I loved her as my best friend and used to share everything with her but she only was the main villain of our story. In fact, not only she but all the third person kind people, because the relationship between him and me was so delicate that it got affected very easily. Initially, I was completely under depression because of my mistake and later when I started telling about him to my friends then it became a complete menace. He never ever listened to me at all like I was nothing and nowhere in his story.

My friends, who did not even know him properly and hadn't met him personally, they were very close to him and he listened to everything said by them, which was completely insulting to me. Later when I tried to talk to him, he always thought that there was some problem with me. I always tried to be your good friend dude and I really didn't have that kind of feelings for you and just can't have at all and

Because I Never Ever Had Those Kind Of Feelings For You From Initial Stages Of Our Relationship You're My Good Friend That's It.And I Love Him And Not You So Plzz Don't Think So Much Dear...

And I Am Completely Demisexual Kind Of A Person

And. So I Really Don't Possess Those Kind Of Feelings For You At All

MY HEART REALLY POUNDS FOR YOU dear please try to understand and...

And I just can't understand one thing that why you always listen to other people and not me as I am nothing and they're everything for you whom you haven't met ever and not even knowing properly as well as personally ......

And one more thing I would strongly desire to mention that why the heck you always try to take wrong meaning out of my each and every message sent to you just as a friend

I may really love to ask one question to you...

Do you really think that we actually maintain a healthy relationship, Do You Really Think That Our Relationships A Transparent As It Should Be Actually or our relationship really possesses those qualities which a healthy relationship should actually possess .....

😍Last But Not The Least😍 

You're just innocently beautiful from heart

And I just don't want our relationship to be just a fable instead I would love to get written in Golden Letters 

And I just want our relationship to be fascinating as well as the best relationship in the world...

😑😑😑😑😑😑

And I Sincerely Apologize If I've Hurt You/Your Sentiments In Any Sense Then...

🤐I Am Not Interested In This Completely Absurd Kinda Relationship With You🤐

In fact.....

I am seriously interested in maintaining a healthy relationship with you. Hoping that we will meet very soon and you won't be having any kind of insecurities in your mind about me. Also staunchly expecting for a comforting hug from you, which can be a huge full stop for all the misunderstandings as well as problems between us.

HOPING FOR THE BEST.

And There Are Many Things Which I've Not Mentioned Here because They're Bery Very Personal So I Would Love To Ask About Them To You Directly

Moral - Now, I won't entertain any third person in our story.