The Innocent In A Cruel World

It is the season of winter. I sit on the window corner looking outside through the transparent glasses of my room. It is snowing heavily. The white blanket of the snow has embraced the environment. The snowflakes falling down delicately plays their part to enhance the beauty. The environment is quiet and chilly. I experience a blissful calmness filling me with pleasure and solitude. It has been one year since I move to this place. I take a sip of tea, close my eyes and eventually a hundred memories flash through my mind.

In my life happiness is in a hurry while the sorrows are on a vacation. I remember how one after the other everyone broke me apart. I could neither sleep nor remain awake. I could neither die nor remain alive. I could neither speak nor remain silent. I was only like a spirit stuck in a body. All I said to myself " Come on! Take it easy. It is not the end of everything " saying these words a flame lit my heart giving me a blissful feeling for some time.

Friendship can be a blessing if performed by the heart and at the same time can be condemned if performed for self-benefit and self-empowerment. Friendship today is meant only for those who can provide the other with material pleasure, expensive things, and fame. The true friendship between two hearts has vanished. People like me who can't change with time are left with permanent heft.

"Change with the time or time will suppress you in cages"

Man is undoubtedly a social animal. It needs society for its survival. But nowadays people need society to show their wealth and might. Making fun of others has become like a ritual. The bondages of society have kept us fixed in a boundary. There has been a tremendous effect of society on me. The people have a conservative idealogy. There is no space for new ideas and events. They avoid the people having huge dreams like a Muslim avoids meals in the holy month of Ramadan. While sitting on the chair, while laying on the bed I wonder why are these bondages, why are society only for a few people, why the people who work for their dreams pulled back by society. I take a deep breath and said again with a fleeting voice" Come on! Take it easy. It is not the end of everything "

Love is the feeling of endless pleasures and intense affection between two hearts. Love is considered to be a blessing of God on mankind but in my life, even this blessing doesn't last long. There was a lie behind her smile, there was a serpent behind her crystalline look and an evil soul trapped in an ethereal body. I wonder is there anything in the universe meant for me. I don't understand why everyone leaves me, broke me, and plays with me. What is wrong with me. I was feeling like a schlemiel lost in a deep ocean filled with apathy and chaos.

"Look what the fantasy the eyes are witnessing- people craving for people in a crowd of people"

I tried to recall the words which I used to persuade my heart. With a heavy heart, I said to myself in a hushed tone " Come on! Take it easy. It is not the end of everything " but this time the flame which was filling my heart with confidence and pleasure had put my heart into ashes.

"You can conceal all your pain in your soul and pretend that it doesn't exist but somehow someway it will unwrap and stand in front of you demanding it is an integral part of yours"