The Fight We Never Had

Hey baby, 

The minute I met you, my life changed. I was too young to understand that it was love. But I knew my heart skipped a beat every time you smiled. I did not dare to talk to you. So I buried my emotions deep within me and in my dreams. Life had other plans, and the next time we connected, it was destiny. I enjoyed and treasured every moment with you. I cherished every word that you said. I waited for your message and spent sleepless nights just to see one Good Morning message from you. The phone became a part of me and every word you spoke rang in my ear. I wish to be near you but shrugged at the reality. You were halfway across the world, and the distance did not matter. Every time I closed my eyes, you were near me, and I could almost feel your heartbeat. My best friends did not trust you, and it did not matter. I told them it was nothing, but I secretly wished for a life with you. And at a point of time, even three lifetimes with you would have been a blessing. You were my first crush, and I felt lucky and blessed. It took years for me to make contact and every minute was worth this time. We never spoke much, but it did not matter. The first time you told the magical word, my heart leaped with joy. I wished for the moment to freeze and capture us in the mystical time bubble. I never suspected a thing because love blinded me. Your flaws were insignificant, and I embraced it as a part of you. ‘Hey baby’ was the last message you sent me. I never knew what you wanted to say to me that day. The next time I saw you was in marriage photos. And I lost something precious that day, and it was not just you. It was my ability to love, the ability to trust and more importantly, the ability to feel. My whole fantasy world crashed, and I am not sure how to rebuild it. I might smile someday, but It will be meaningless and a mask to hide my broken heart. I am sure you had your reason. I feel not for the life we never had. But for the fight, we never fought. The fact that you never considered us worth fighting for troubles me. Sometimes, I dream about you, and the sentence stops at ‘Hey baby’. And the reply I never gave you would be ‘ Hi darling, Congratulations! You broke me.’