The Confession Of A Dark Horse

Born as a mistake by a young couple fighting their way up the social and financial ladder. Adding a third person to the equation was not what they expected but they had no choice.

Working the same shitty jobs and getting shitty pay, they had to raise their beautiful daughter with everything they had. Not long after, they seemed to not have learned from the first mistake. Just a few months later, she was carrying their second born.

That would be a nightmare but they had learned to keep up with everything. A few months after, a baby boy is born to this same young couple. He had to leave to find better opportunities leaving her to care for these two little ones.

It was hard having to juggle work and taking care of two kids who needed equal attention. Their grandmother came around and she realized how much it was hard for her to handle little kids. To be of help, she took the daughter with her and she stayed with the baby boy. Meanwhile, their father never showed up again. Perhaps the better opportunities became the only thing important to him than a family he had left behind save for starting a new family of his there.

These little kids never knew. It was not yet time for them to worry. Their mother however worked hard despite the insults and harassment from work, her children's well-being was all that mattered. Day by day, she watched them grow before her eyes. That is the only thing that kept her moving.

School started, she had to come back from her grandmother's. She was a wise little thing and a blessing to her mother. Everyone was amazed by the things she could do. Nevertheless, this also came as a curse. She remembered her father and longed to see her. Her mother couldn't explain to her what had happened. 

When the worse came to the worst, she brought her kids out of vain to search for their father in the big city. The worst thing he had to do was hide from the woman who made sure their family reunited and block the love two young kids wanted.

It was heartbreak but also a lesson for them. It was time to toughen up and accept the fact he will never come back in their lives. When they learned that, life became a motivation to work hard. Their mom persevered and started her own business. 

It was hard and didn't bring in so much but it was enough to pay rent and feed her children. She had to juggle different jobs to raise her two angels. 

Years after and they had grown into people she never thought they would. Her daughter though never told her a lot of things. She was always the quiet one and the one who needed more space out of them. Her love for independence came first before anything and she never trusted anyone.

The past did a toll on her. She would never forget the betrayal of their father or how hard they had survived. She kept all the pain and everything she wanted to say to herself. As a young girl, all she ever wanted was a father's love which never happened. 

She plastered her depression and wounds all by herself and shut her heart from everyone. To her, no one could be trusted. No one was worthy to love but her family. It was easier to build all these walls around her. She felt safer and secure behind the darkness.

Fighting a mental illness and darkness in her heart was something she had to do on her own. These feelings made her numb and emotionally unstable. That is the result of a broken family.

While their son decided that the only thing to keep from being hurt was shut out the world. Having no reliable friends and trying to fit in where necessary. He protected himself by never talking about anything even to his family. It was safe when people didn't know what he felt or thought. 

This resulted in anger issues and a story growth as a teen. It kept getting hard having no one to talk to or guide him. Having a loving mother wasn't enough, he needed to see his father and have the satisfaction that he loved him and he was there.

Their mother never brings up the topic, she knows how it affects them. She was hurt. She might never have shown that to her kids but they knew. They knew that she was affected somehow. Even if she moved on, the pain of the betrayal never left. She was still so angry.

A broken family who will never believe are already broken and souls looking for survival. That is what is left to live for.