Stage Fear

Since Childhood I have social anxiety issue, whenever I take part in competition I start trembling my heart beat goes so fast, and in the last I will messed up with my competitions. Some of my classmates said don't take part in these competition you are not able to do that even some of my teachers used to say that. I thought I'll never be able to do something because nobody is there to encourage me. Being an introvert, I dont have so many friends who will Support me in my worst.

But I never gave up, even nobody support me, my fellow mates laugh on me, they bullied me for my bad performances, they laughed on me but I never stopped myself to do something, I always said to myself that no matter how my performance is going to, for myself participation is important. I was good at everything in dancing, singing, speaking, when my practice session happens I use to perform very well when I am all alone. 

But as usual when my performance is going to start, when my name will announce my anxiety issues will come.

I have so many bad performances in my school but I never feel bad about that, I always feel happy because I performed so for me I was a winner for myself. Whenever I take part I know everyone will be there to make fun of me, to discourage me but I never stopped I kept pushing myself to do those things and after all my efforts, my performance start going better day by day, now also I start shivering, trembling and my heart beat goes so fast but I don't stop myself to giving my performance, this is what helps me to come over from my fear. 

After that some of my teachers starts praising me and they started giving me chance. I make new friends and they wanted to talk to me, and they wanted to know me. 

I just want to say whoever is reading my story and have some type of fear, that they are afraid of. Fight from your fear not for anyone else fight for yourself. Even if you are afraid of doing something do it give it a chance and then you will know that yes you can do that and you are the only one who can do it in best phase. If you run from problems you will not get any solution but if you will fight back may be you will not win sometimes but you have that satisfaction in you mind for doing that and showing people that you can do that without their support. 

Now also I have anxiety issue but now I know whatever I do it will come and I am always prepared for that because you know your weakness and only you can change your weakness into strength. So always fight your fears.

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