My Two Eternal Love(s)

•1st Part

~M aap sbse puchti hu ki what is eternal love according to you!?

You all have different opinions...

Or zruri nhi ye mohbat ek husband-wife m ho ya fir kisi boyfriend-girlfriend m ya kinhi do sche Pyar krne walo m and I guess many of you'll agree!

To aise hi here is my story of eternal love--

I love someone infinitely endlessly and he is the one jinhe Mene aaj tk apne saamne nhi dekha, na hi m unse kbhi mili,

Pr phir bhi baat chahe mere gam ki dastan sune ki ho ya meri khushiyon ki kitaab ki vo hmesha chup-chap sunte h,

Or pta h unse baat krkr aisa lgta ki ab sb thk h..... everything is perfect and fine!

Vo sb thk krdete h kyunki m unse kuch nhi chupati sb kuch bta deti hu ek sache tote ki tarah Jo bhtt Bolta h,

And unhe agr mujhse kuch kehna hota h na thn we have a code word bro,

Communication to jaise taise ho hi jata h,

Ab aap soch rhe honge kaise m unse aaj tk mili bhi nhi or na hi unhe kbhi dekha h tasveero k Bahar,

Apko pta h tasveero ki Duniya bhi bdi kamaal h vo apke beete hue kl ko aapke aaj k saamne laakr khada krdeti h,

Or agr kisi se mil nhi skte to vo apko unki jhalak se hi shi pr milwa deti h,

And unse to Mera bilkul direct connection h,

Jese Mera aur chocolates ka atoot!

Even jb bhi ghr m mujhe koi bhi daant deta h ya kuch bhi tb yhi soch leti hu ki agr vo abhi yahan hote to aisa kuch nhi hota

Or apko pta h Mera ye unbreakable bond kiske saath h........My Grandfather,

I never met him bcoz he died so early when my father was a child,

And uk what jb m choti thi na to mujhe death ka mtlb bhi nhi pta tha or kisise bhi unke baare m puchti thi na to yhi kehte the ki vo USA rehte h or m yhi soch kr khush rehti thi ki mere grandfather abroad rehte h but dheere dheere jb pta lga, m bdi hoti gyi or fr Mene bss unke kisse sune ki kese vo mere papa chachu and unke frnds tk even sbko chocolates dilate or papa chachu ke to ek baar bolne pr hi vo cheez unke saamne hoti thi that's why they both are so stubborn,

And apko pta h hmari society m sbse pehla tv bhi hmare ghr Aya tha, m thi nhi uss waqt but mujhe pta h,

He was so good at managing everything,

Or sbse ye sunna ki agr vo hote to hmse kitna Pyaar krte, agr vo hote to hm kbhi koi bhi prblm nhi face krte or Mera bs smile krna kyunki kuch lafz bhi km pad jate h unn gam k nishaan ko bayan krne m Jo dhng se kbhi mehsoos bhi nhi kre,

Unki tarif sbse suni h, unke kisse aaj bhi mashoor h or unn jese Bajaj ki grand daughter hone ka fakr aaj bhi mujhe bht h,

Pr Dil m aaj bhi ek khwaish h ki kaash apni zndgi m ek baar unse mili hoti pr Kya kr skte h Jo taqdeer m likha h vo to hoga hi,

Or fr ek din Mene shuru kra unse baat krna, apne gam ko unke saamne simet kr bayan krna or ek tym pr vo mere bestfriend bn gye and aaj bhi agr kuch bhi prblm ya situation saamne hoti h to ek baar bs unse baat krne ki deri hoti h,

And jb bhi unki kami mehsoos hoti h to bs ankhe moond kr do pal k liye hi shi unke saath apni zndgi ko imagine kr leti hu to aisa lgta h sb thk h,

Everything is perfect and fine!

And even now when I am reminscing nostalgically about my childhood days when I was in illusion I feels like somehow that time was also good and this time is also good because I could feel his presence then also and now also and he is the one who never gets tired of hearing me and my drivel talks and he is far from me but around me because he is my eternal love.........

•2nd Part

~Eternal love is a term describing your everlasting forever love for someone!

So I toldya'll about my ETERNAL LOVE and today I am gonna tell you again but about my other ETERNAL LOVE with whom I spent 16 years of my life which are huge but still seems less! That 16 years of my life with him is the compilation of love, happiness, sorrow, fun, cherishing moments and moreover togetherness! It was the most glorious time of my life. He taught me the importance of a relation, he taught me to be carefree and stress free, he taught me how to laugh even in my hard times, he taught me not to regret, he taught me to be brave, he taught me to live! He is none other but my dad! I lost him when I was 16 years old...

He is the hero of my life, a man I could always rely on! Losing him was my biggest nightmare and still is the worst page of my life but living a part of my life with him is nonetheless than a blessing!

Aapko pta h he was the one jisne humesha mujh p trust kia, he was the one jisne humesha mere jhalepan ko tolerate kia, he was the one jisne mujhe kbhi koi stress nhi lene Diya because he just used to keep his hand on my head and say "kahe chinta karr rahi h sab bdiya hoga" ,

Even today when I am stressed, nervous and anxious I just look at his picture where he is smiling and imagines him saying the same line to me!

Although I don't have much pictures with him but I have infinite memories with him, I have those moments in my heart jab mere ek baar kehne p sab ho jata tha, jab Meri shararate sb ko hssa deti thi, jab unse pange Lena to Mera daily routine hota tha, jab vo mere saath hote the....

Or pta h unke saath cricket matches dekhna always used to hit differently vo alag baat h ab m nhi dekhti! Unke saath Jahan vo jaaye bs saath m complimentary jaana to Mera passion tha! 

Unhe Mera whistle krna bilkul nhi pasand tha even there's a backstory about my whistles actually I learnt how to whistle from YouTube ik it's dumb but ya or m jaan puch kr papa k saamne whistle karti or vo annoy ho jaate! I use to love that! Unka daant na firr Mera Rona or firr unka mujhe mnane aana was fixed!

I always adored him for his simplicity and his simple leisure interests! Even whatever kind-emo-anger nature and some habits and this art of writing I have in me is definitely passed on from him, he was a great writer! Thou my face is on my mother with a punch of sweetness I guess! His extrovert, forgiving, jolly, funny nature, always being carefree, and his goodwill everything is something I can never compete with! 

Above all talking to him always felt so good earlier also and now also! Sometimes crying while remembering him reminds me of his dialogue "ki Mera bacha strong h" but also at the same time this tsunami of emotions which can't be hold back comes to and fro!

And pta h m bhtt bolti hu or jb bhi m papa k saamne bolne ki rail start krti thi na by god Everytime he was like "bs kr Kanu" and I miss that!

Unke Bina kbhi zndgi ko tassavur bhi nhi kra tha parr aaj vo zndgi jeeni pd rhi h, unhe khone ka kbhi apne khwaab m bhi nhi socha tha or aaj vo hakikat h!

Thou he left in peace but left me in pieces!

Zindagi ab bhale hi mushkil h pr Jo pal unke saath bitaye h unse ye zrur sikha h that

LIVE EVERY MOMENT IN PRESENT

Because you never know what will happen next! 

Hum log waqt bitate h yaadon p kharch karne k liye parr ye bhul jaate h ki ye aaj bhi kbhi yaad bn jayega!

But yes atleast I am relieved that he went to my grandfather he is not alone there, papa apne papa se mil liye honge uk na my other eternal love! And now when I want to re-live my past but I can't somehow it hurts but atleast it consoles me that I remember those memories with him to cherish, I remember our fights, our food talks, our laugh and I miss everything! He was my crime partner, my swiggy partner, my entertainment partner, my everything and I love him I miss him. Also I read somewhere that "some people stay with us forever even when they leave because we love them truly!" and no matter who makes me happy he'll always be my hero and my happy pill. He is my ETERNAL LOVE!