My First Love

Megha was an innocent girl of 14 yrs old she moves to a big town Kota for her further study as her 10 boards are over. 

She was a kind of shy, innocent, and sensitive girl. She is beautiful in both aspects from the outside as well as inside. She always dedicated her life to keeping people around her happy. She believes in character. For her knowledge is more important than one-time success. But she also had weaknesses, she believes in people easily, had low self-confidence, low self-esteem, underestimate herself, negative self-talk. 

Since childhood, she was a good student in her studies but has always struggled with maths. Her childhood was not that good. Because she never get love from her parents as she was living with them but still she feels alone from inside. She feels awkward in front of her parents when they used to love and care for her. She feels strange and not worthy to love. Because her parents show love from the superficial but from the inside, there was a kind of burden of having two girl children and taking care of them ( their responsibility till marriage), yes Megha had two siblings Maya and Saras. Megha was elder in age but she was still a little child from inside she wants love and to fill that void. She felt that somewhere something was missing and wrong was happening to her.

So why did Megha have so low self-esteem that she felt unworthy to be loved by her own parents? As she was a little child who is just come into this world and now is her early age of joy and learning things. But her parents like every other Indian parent, overprotective want her to be mature enough like other girls. They used to compare her with her own sister and other girls from the body to mark. Yes, body shaming. She by the influence of her parents thought that all the problem is with her, she is a curse on them, she used to cry that why she is that way? She was innocent so don't know what is real and not. Little children are sensitive they can be easily influenced by anyone. If someone said you are good they feel good about themselves and if they say why you are born it's better that you died early. How does someone feel to hear this? Think about the mental health of the child how it is disturbed? Her all creativity, her innocence all got disappear with time. She left trying things and always blaming herself and her parents for everything.

To be continued............