Life Experiences

Life does stop, it continues…. True, very true. No matter what, we need to go on. There's no point in stopping and waiting for someone to put things right. Ain't it? One day, two days, maximum one week you'll have your loved one's surrounding you. Some will comfort you, others will encourage you to move ahead. But behind, someone will be there who will taunt you, curse you or wish evil for you...

This is not new for me, as I have been going through these very often in my life. More than appreciation I have faced rejection. I made up my mind to ignore and concentrate on my job. I had faced a lot of problems, but I had to get up and get going. I started going for work, life wasn't easy. 

To add on, I had problems financially and I didn't know how to deal with it. I learned a lot through my observations. I realized things are not the way we see it. Our perception, our views are different. Each workplace has it's rules and regulations. Not just doing what you are supposed to but doing more was on the list. Initially it was difficult, but slowly I started getting into the routine. It kept me on my toes all day through, evenings I would spend with my son and at night it was a deep sleep. 

Yes, a deep sleep. I couldn't get up in the middle of the night as I would be too tired. Morning I would wake up fresh ready for another challenge. I proved myself despite all the allegations and discriminations. Finally, I felt at peace, and the reason for that was Hods grace and my hardwork. Yes, My hard work paid. I was informed about getting a permanent post. My happiness grew, but tragedy stood. 

I had to leave. Not for my fault but for some other reason. Could not continue as the students registered for science stream were less. I felt I lost everything. I had to start from zero again. Maybe some other workplace, a new surrounding, a new location. 

Being at home searching for a job was not easy. But God opened a new door for me. I got a job and was very happy. But the work environment was very different. Again new challenges set in. I had to start all over again. Some colleagues were good, some unpredictable. But I set my target to keep myself busy. I started writing, though I had started initially at my earlier workplace, here I got more time. I took up every competition as a challenge for me. From a poem about my son to a short story, quotes and national-level competitions too. 

I started getting appreciations for my writing. I felt more motivated. Besides writing I would encourage my son to participate in drawing or craft competitions. So these competitions slowly started changing me. I realised the need to face challenges. It moulded me into a different person. My perception of life changed. I agree I feel lonely many times but I divert my mind towards plants. My love for plants has given me a part-time plant selling opportunity. I earn some profit but more than that I get a chance to see the plants that are bought every time new stock arrives. 

So life has given me pain, but I do have gained a lot of experience from it. I still recall my past but I say unto myself that it's over now. Today I can say that I am a better person than I was some years back. Thanks to all those challenges that I have faced. I am much at peace with myself now. More close to God, deeper bound to prayers and worship. I still have problems but I won't stop. I won't let bad over the good. I will fight against the unjust. I will speak the truth. A good person will not be punished unnecessarily. The purpose which God has set for me to accomplish I will fulfil.  And if I have made wrong decisions or I have hurt anyone then I will apologise for the same. I don't intend hurting anyone as I know the depth of hurt feelings.  I ask God for forgiveness and an opportunity to put things to right. Whatever be the end result atleast I will be able to be at rest, as I know I have tried. And one thing I would like to add is, my son has imbibed certain changes in me. He has made me see things through a new perspective, to be quiet yet firm.

So here I end, with a positive thought, "Believe that you can do and work towards it. See it will turn into reality soon. You will reap what you have planted". 

Signing out... Till I pen down my experiences again, a short goodbye...