Incomplete control2 mins 269 2 mins 269
The world looked different to her in the past one month. Now she has a new family to take care of. Now she is able to speak to him without any apprehension- thanks to the 10 bucks yellow rope and 4 grams of gold that's hanging on her neck.
She feels that her every walk of the day is being judged. Her attitude was being mistaken for being disrespectful. She felt like a novice on ice hockey court- ready to fall next second, but still holding her head high and straight.
She is pondering about her dream and trying to put her feet on what that dream means to her. Is her dream is something for which she had left her home, or is it the home where reaching now has become a dream. She is lost in her own thoughts, trying to mask it in a virtual world with unlimited scrolls.
Now, she is being pulled between two extremes- PRINCIPLES and RITUALS- with two different relationship which she would never compromise for any reason. She has to take a stand on the 'token of love' aka dowry being given to her. This token of love is now being given by her thinking that she would be happy. But she knows that this would turn into a nightmare soon.
She doesn't want her parents to spend again for her but she couldn't say no for their token of love(RITUAL). She knows she is going be far away from them- 1500kms- and she wants to leave them happily.
Also, She is not sure on how to compromise her partner on accepting this token of love. He feels that his capacity is being questioned whenever she spoke about this token of love. He is sure that he could make her happy with whatever he has. He has his own PRINCIPLES.
She is being yelled at both the poles for speaking her mind. She is bewildered with the bombardment of different ideologies. Voicing her opinion was never a option.
She is now indifferent about this ritual and his principles. She is gonna flow like a river and take her own course over time. She is setting herself free from all the constraints by taking a dip into her own virtual world.
She is gonna flow for ever and ever like an endless river. She is gonna be her own self- spreading optimism like a perennial river.
She is not gonna sell her soul for incomplete control.