" I Was Consumed By My Own Feelings"

There are countless feelings and thoughts that house inside our own self. Perplexing, chaotic, and sometimes even dominating! when we are lost lighting our outer self it is then these extremely baffling aspects of our self begin to take into account. It seeps deep into our soul and the real you is buried. well, last night I was up till late, engrossed in the world of work despite feeling sleepy. At 1 AM I cleared the mess and went to sleep.it was 2 AM when I started to feel completely unusual. There was so much going inside of me and I could feel the bizarre thoughts bombarding in my head. It happened till morning. I got up from my bed at around 6 AM and pulled off the curtains and saw the morning light doing away with the darkness. I closed the curtain and I began to weep. not that I had discovered something terrible but was not able to bear the fact that I couldn't sleep the whole night even when I was dying to sleep for the entire yesterday. The incident made no sense to me that day. but weeks later after going through self-introspection I discovered that there are a lot of things that occur to us in a day. we might get cheated by the most trusted, we might get betrayed by someone whom we never thought would do to us, etc. the point is, these incidents evolve us into is not what we were yesterday and it is completely fine. you will trust the stranger a little less than before next time. But they mysteriously instill in our self things like anger, ego, jealously, hatred, defensive behavior, anxiety, sadness, irritation, and mental illness. we know very little how these not so small aspect of our own body can bring so much difference. These random thoughts which were hitting me hard that night brought so much to me when I tried to check what was consuming me. I discovered another world inside of me which needed attention and care.