I should have said no back then

He was blind but can see again the light of day but the price was way beyond his imagination. 

Do not say yes, easily without having a fight or a second thoughts. The little time spent in deciding what to answers might save you or ruin you depending upon your decision.

 A story by Vi pamei.

Like any normal human ,i got a limitation, and i m what people call a handicapped. I m very unfortunate and unlucky. But to be true, my handicapped is not from my birth but because of an unavoidable accident, which happened when i m 3 years old, which led me to lose my eyesight,i couldn't recollect ,the exact events and how it happen,i only learn about the details,only after my dad told me on my 18th birthday.

 I finished my graduation ,and i became a role model for many of those who are physically handicapped and who had lose hopes in their existence because of their disability. I did gives motivational speech on many occasions and functions. 

I did enjoy my life ,and i have a blessed life, every one in my family take good care of me,and at times i didn't have the thought that i m blind. I m very lucky indeed to have such a beautiful and loving family.

As i had became a well known personality in our community, i got many admirers,and there is one particular fans who grasp my attention and shortly, i happen to date the so called fans and she spend most of her time by my side and she is always ready to be by my side and take care of me ,and i feel so blessed to have a girlfriend like her. She was a nurse by profession so i thought its the best decision to date a nurse.

At times i feel depressed as i couldn't see how my girlfriend looks like, and i want to see the world with my eyes, differentiation between all the colors ,the foods i eat, the places i go ,the crowds i present speech,the bed i sleep ,the pet i own,my dad, mom, brother and the girl i kiss goodnight , good morning . 

On my 25th birthday,my girlfriend present me a surprise ,its not a material nor any thing's which can be touch by any human, but its more valuable than everything I could expect from a gift store or the world.

She said to me that, she had made necessary appointment with an eyes specialist,and if I agreed to it, i can have my eyesight back.

I asked what exactly is that,and why is that a surprise? 

 The LIGHT FOUNDATION, is an organization which specializes in sponsoring medical research , experimentation, development of new vaccine, medicine and the development in human genes ,and solving the defects in human body ,and even by birth defect can be cured through their most advanced nano technology. She paused and then continue, they had published an invitation for a human trial on one of their latest eyes surgery by the uses of light and nano bot technology and their latest discovered medicine,i had submitted an application requesting to participate in the trial,as i wish for you to see the world with your own eyes,and since your defect is not natural i believe it can be cured.

I listen to her in amazement and i don't have any thing in my mind to answered her,she continued on telling me on how she came across it . I kept silent.

She asked me again,are you not Happy with this news?

I'm not ! I said.

Then what was it she demanded!

This dreams of me, seeing the world with my eyes , is this possible,i really wanted to see the world,to see you ,to see everything i feels about, but isn't that too much for me to handled, I said.

She assured me that she had faith in the procedure and the surgery .And after we had discussion with my family, i decided to agree to join the human trial ,for my eye surgery.

Should i say, I'm lucky or unlucky, my data was their choices for the surgery and I'm selected for the surgery of eyes using light and nano technology, to be done on a human, I'm the first human subjects. I m at a big risk but with my faith and family encouragement and the assurance of the doctor, i feels safe and at peace and happiness. All my fear are shielded by their sweet words.

During the month of September,i was scheduled to have my appointment for the first time, on the first day every one in my family and my girl friend accompanied me, the LIGHT FOUNDATION, headquarters was situated at the outskirts of the capital,and it's a large research facilities, i couldn't see but i could feel that the complex is enormous.

I met the doctor at the schedule time.

He greeted me with a kind words.

He said,hello, Gerald, I'm doctor Ganchuangna, and I am the one who will oversee the project, and also be the liaison between you and the foundation.   My g.f who is standing behind me tap on my shoulder and whispered, do not stress out,we are right beside you .

Even though I'm blind and cannot see the light of day,my senses are far more sensitive than others, my smelling sense, hearing senses are more advanced than normal people but then i still longed to see the light of day. 

After necessary formal introduction, i was instructed to follow the doctor into his chamber, my girl friend help me along the way. Inside the doctor chamber, we had a lengthy discussion, about the advantage and also some precautions to be taken and the side effects which will happen for a few days or week ,till i had recovered completely. The doctor informs us that the procedure will be undertaken in 4 phase and my sight will be at my grasp by the end of 40 days which is about almost six weeks . After about a long discussion, i was told to sign a documents, stating my willingness to undergo the procedure,and many other related things. I was told my medication will be provided for free, but after 30 days,i would get the medicine for 70%off of the normal price. The procedure is free off course.

After signing all the documents, we were told that our first procedure will start tomorrow , and we were told to go back home take a good rest and comes back the next day with positive thoughts.We thank the doctor and exited the room.

The next day we arrive at the facilities and my girlfriend tag along with me ,as I cant drive on my own as i could not see anything. The nurse greet us ,and we were told to follow her. We enter a lift and we ride upward the lift, at the 7th floor, the lift stop and we headed out of the box ,then the nurse pointed towards a certain door and told us to enter the door,and then she goes in the other room. My girlfriend open the door and i followed my girl, we were told to get seated down and this seem to be the resting room for any visitors and individual accompanying the patients. The doctor ,began re introduction again his name, saying hello, young lad, I'm Dr. Ganchuangna,and these two ladies besides me are the doctors who will be assisting me, Dr, Helen and Dr. Nancil.

We will begin shorty the operation and i suggest , change you to the operation gown, Dr Helen will assist you . After i had change my outfit, I was made to lie down on a steel bed with a wheel. I m laying down on my back facing my face upward, i had this thought, that I'm seeing a ceiling fans or the ceiling itself, picturing how beautiful it is . After a few minutes the nurse who led us the way before,knock on the door and inform the doctor, that's its ready, The the doctor told me that , surgery will commence in no time,and i heard the doctor telling,my girl to wait for us at this room,and it wouldn't take an hour to finish the first session.

All i could heard was the sound of footstep and metal wheel rolling.

I could heard about 3 doors open and being shut , finally we reach the OT.

Doctor Gan asked me, if i feeling nervous,i nod. Then he assured me i will be fine. Then he began to talk to a voice recorder and began talking, now the subject is ready for the 1st procedure, as i continue listening to his voice, one of the female doctor prep me for the surgery, i could feel a quick sharp prick above at my forehead, and between both my eyes at the base of the nose, after' a few minutes i feels half of the portion of my face had left my body, i felt at peace as the pain which i usually felt disappeared.

It seem i was administered with the numbing agents. All my other parts of mt body are awake but only this portion of near mt eyes,it felt as if i was born without this part.

The doctors were talking in language and words i couldn't understand as i don't have much knowledge on medical terms .

After many minutes of laying flat on the operating table, the doctor finally said to me, first procedure is completed and this numbness will dissolve and disappear slowly. 

 After the 1st procedure is done, i was led back to the visiting room,and was told to rest for 4 hours with all the IV tube inserting in my veins, till the numbing agent wears off,and after necessary inspection . As my senses of hearing is not being sedated,i could make out what the doctor are telling to my girl . The doctor was telling her, that, the first 3 nights, i might get an acute pain, but soon it will wear off if i take this pills in regular intervals of time, which he will gives it for free,and also told her ,that i should avoid direct sunlight,and had ti wear the shades , prescribed by the doctor,and for the next procedure, the next appointment will be after 7 days ie a week time. I could heard my gf, asking many questions on how to take proper care of me, the diet, the time to take the pills and so on .

I thought how lucky I'm to get a girl who cared me a lot .

We arrived home, late in the evening,at around 5 pm,we reached our little home.

True to the doctor prediction,i felt an acute pain, as if someone or something is stabbing my eyes, and at one point, my eyes seems burning and i almost recollect the pain i felt back when i lost my eye sight for the first day back when i was young. I had to bear the pain till ,the schedule time for medication approach, after about 5 minutes of experiencing pain, i swallow down three pills, and gulp down a cup of luke-warm water,and slowly the pain fade away,and within minutes ,the pain fade away . I wonder why would i had for the pain be felt first then take the pills,i rub off negative thoughts and decided to be on the positive sides.

The following days, i felt the pain early in the morning and before retiring to bed, the following week i had to cancel all my appointment as i had to avoid bright light, cancellation of all the appointment ,made me lose a thousands of money, as i was a premium motivational speaker, and i ve been preparing on my head, for my next grand speech, after my surgery is success. I began to builds castle in the emptiness. And this thought makes me feels better.

My second appointment was the same as my first one, but i observed a little changed,after the procedure before the doctor placed an eye pad made up of soft cotton mixed with a chemical,i could see light, bright light which i never witnessed before. This time the doctor added another 2 different pills for me. Saying the same old thing that I will feel unfold pain on the first night, but the pain will fade away very soon. 

The doctor said, the next appointment will be the most crucial one, and it will consume times as we will introduce the Nano into it, so far so good, your gene is not resisting all the drugs and anti bio-tics we administered,and its a good sign. And you will soon see the light of day . He added 

As predicted ,i felt the pain that night,but as my girl knew all the necessary procedure to take care of the pain and me she did it at ease . For the following three days i still continue feeling pain, slowly the pain scale decrease and without realizing it, my 3rd appointment is just only a few hours to countdown.

The next day we reach the facilities, this time my parents accompanied me, and unlike any other procedures process, that day was different, they ran many test,blood test, urine test saliva test, and check on my vitals, scan me for a couple of times, and i hardly had time to talk with my girl .

 At mid-day i was back at the OT again, and was administered the numbing agent,this time i could notice that, the procedure was taking long . And the doctor did do their best to not make a mistake. Then after a hour, i can heard the doctor saying to fellow doctor, prepare to introduce the nano bots and upload the sequence and the grafts. I was wondering what was that. Am i getting a robotic vision? I doubt it .

After many hours of surgery ,its was completed. The 3rd procedure underwent well.

At the resting room, as i was resting, i could hear doctor saying to my girl and my family ,the waiting time for the final procedure is 2 weeks,and i had to be on a straight diet, which will bring more vitamin for my eyes and my medication doubled. And the pain would be minimal, but for the first week ,it be like hell, doctor exclaimed. 

As i laying down, i heard Doctor Gan, telling the nurse to change the pad which is protecting the new pair of eyes,which will see the light of days for a 2nd time in life. As the nurse slowly unwrapped the bandage and slowly taking out the pad, i could see,i swear,i see the outline of material, the ceiling fans, shape of human,the nurse who is tending me, the shape of the room . What i did see was barely an outline of an object, i don't know which to compare as i have no ideas what is seeing like. I smile ,and i feels great, learning i could now, able to sees things even if its just a line now . As the nurse came forward and block the light source all the outline fade and darkness win overs again, once again ,i was wrapped in bandages again . Wrapped in like the mummy . In the background the doctor continue on talking with my family members dad ask when will he feels that his sights is coming back?

After 2 weeks time, the last procedure will tell everything,we had to had hope that the surgery was success. As your son is the first subject in this surgery involving a nano bot and the new drugs, its unclear and unsure for us to say his sight will be restored hundred percent,but i assured you, it will be ok. The doctor said with an assurance.

Back at home, the first night was unbearable and i could get even a little nap ,pain struck me the whole night, and this continues on for almost a week. I became weak,as i barely had a proper sleep. My girlfriend call the doctor and share the situation,but the doctor said this is the normal process, be rest assured. I feel like tearing off the bandage and dipping myself in cold water to ease the pain, i did take the prescribed pills but it did little works. 

But as if my guardian had answer my prayers, the next day the pain disappeared and didn't appear again till the next and the last appointment.

Everyone was excited and were in a beautiful mood ,as this appointment will judge my future. Will i able to see it or not.

Like the 3rd appointment, this time also the whole family accompanied me, the 4th procedure was a normal one,just unwrapping of the bandage and checking the clueless eye ball, inspection of the eye ball and all. I was led to another room, and was told to sit still and try opening and closing my eyes, after necessary observation i was led back to the visiting room. Now i can make out my way, as i could somehow see light but were all jumble up ,like something i had learn during my school's days, a spectrum of light, and all the object i saw were in color but not what i had expected to be ,all the Colors were mixed up i couldn't make out what is which.

The doctor tell me what will happen and roughly after a couple of days i will be able to see things. The doctor told me that,i will be noticing something i spectrum for the first few day and then things will become normal very soon .

I ask if the bandage is still necessary, doctor says yes, but you can remove it after a couple of days,and your family can have a celebration, and be sure to invite me, he said, and then he led out a small chuckles. This time i had to paid for my medication but with 70%off . The doctor thanks me for the involvement in the procedure and assure me it be alright, and also he told my dad that for at least a year, I'm welcome to come by and had regular checkup, if necessary. Before we exited out,i was once again wrapped in bandage again and i feels uneasiness in darkness for the first time . The doctor gave us one last advice, take pills in regular intervals ,and i can unwrapped the bandages in two days time, and be sure to comes by for observation the following days. I thank him shook his hand and we all headed back home.

Surprisingly, that night didn't feels any pain . I had the most beautiful moments,that night i had a beautiful moments with my family, but my girlfriend was nowhere at my home,i ask my mom,where is she,she said, she be back the next morning, she had left after the dinner, saying she got works at home. I brushes off any negative emotions and had for the first time the happiness, in the thought that i will be seeing the light again .

The next day,i waited anxiously for my girlfriend to come by as i wanted to have a conversation , intimacy moment with her,but she had not appear yet, as i was waiting and listening to my favorite songs, unexpectedly during mid day

I felt a sudden acute pain, the pain became unbearable and i could not bear it anymore, its unlike the previous pain i felt before, its truly unbearable, so i began to scream in pain,and i because of the pain i became aggressive and began to banged the tables and the wall loudly,my mom and dad rush in, and they hold me down. My scream grew louder ,as if someone is pouring petrol on my face and burning it, this time not only the portion of my eye is in pain but my whole face,i could not bear it anymore, i fainted,and darkness engulfed my consciousness.

The next moment when i came to my senses, this would be the most shocking moment of my life. As i could heard my mom and my brother shouting at the facilities staffs and there is a commotion,my brother yelling something inaudible. After a while i heard my dad voice,he was tenses and I could not make out why was the situation in such a bad sour situation. As my dad approach,he looks straight at me, as i look straight at him, and saying ,son,are you ok, i could see shapes but not clearly, the color were distorted, and i could not make out if I'm seeing were human or just my imagination or demon I usually see in my dreams. I wonder why I haven't seen my girlfriend yet. I'm in state of confusion.

I heard the one of the official,explaining to my dad about the situation, my dad still putting his warm hand over my forehead,the man,said, my name is Mr.Doyne, and im the Assistant director of this facilities,and I'm sorry to inform that Dr Ganchuangna is performing an unapproved human trial without the knowledge of the council,and it's also our faults we didn't notice this earlier,your son was the 3rd victims of Dr Gan. Im so sorry. Lucky that your son is still alive till now.Dr.Gan is a guilty convict accused of carrying out unapproved experimentation and he is already ban from entering any medical facilities ,and he is a dangerous criminal, a mad doctor,his real name is Dr.Falcon Senior ,and he used this fake identity to infiltrate this facility with the help of his daughter who works here, he manage to slip in ,and right now, he is in the custody of the SCP mobile task force 2nd division,and he will be likely to be terminated. And his other accomplished,whó are involved in spreading the news about this illegal trial, and all the doctors involved will be on trial, and they will get the verdict very soon, as of now, we only had arrested two individuals,Dr Gan or Dr Falcon and his daughter ,as per the CCTV footage, it seem you might know his daughter identity,its your son girlfriend,she trick your son into this.

My dad freak out , and he was speechless.

I felt a sudden pain on my heart knowing that my so called beloved is actually a partner in a bigger scam, she cheated on me and lied to me, i cursed myself why i fall for her trick's.

Then dad, ask, what will happen to my son?

We will try to reverse engineer the procedure, but it all depends upon the confessions of Dr Gan . Right now your son need medical attention and please trust us,we will sort out things clearly. And deliver the necessary justice and compensation.

I became a free subject for a mad doctor, i actually don't have anything to lose as I'm already blind ,and losing my eyes is not a big deal ,as i accustomed to darkness , depended upon my senses of hearing and feels. The only fear I had is, what if they removed my blinded eyes and left behind an empty eye socket and the feeling of being betrayed by so call love is hard to accept and i had the most saddest moment in my life.

And as i was in deep thoughts another personal dress in white coat,i could barely make out the colors, i take as the individual is wearing white as my vision doesn't see much distorted colors,and the person take me away and for the next , 5 months to precise,5 months and 3 days,i did stay inside the grand facilities. I slowly became adaptable to my new vision but its unexplained and unknown for science.

The doctor runs a series of test on me, and they never got to know what was actually injected and implanted into my eyes, they didn't find anything which can cause me another damage. 

In all the scan, the results seems to show that,my eyes is still the blind eyes,and i could see the vision just about 10 % but contrary to this by the ends of the 2nd month,i could see more clearly but not like how normal person see things and i cóuld see what human could not see and my eyes sights works the best i dim light and i could not understand this strange condition. But all this came with a price, i had to endure and had to be brave,and i had to learn on how to adjust to the sight. 

I could see the person demons, sticking to their body, the first day i witnesses this, i thought i had a nightmare,but slowly i realize that my eyes had mutated to something super , something straight out from a comics books. I didn't see and understand what each monster looks like ,till i was out of the facilities.

By the end of my stays Inside the facilities , i was back at my homes,and i heard from my dad about the Doctor and her daughter and the other accused . Doctor Gan commited suicide,by ingesting a cyanide pills before he can be executed by the execution squad, but he did gives out his confessions but was restricted as the contents were of danger as it contains inhuman human experimentation results,etc and his remains was burnt to ashes .And about his daughter, she was séntence to prison but was imprisoned at the asylum, for doctor found to be bi-polar,she was being treated at the Asylum and the others they were serving sentences at the central Jail and the possibility of parole after 15 years.

I murmur to myself human are too greedy.

After I'm out of the facilities my life is in chaos , as everyday i begin to witness more demon ,new kinds of demons,i became more paranoia and became more agitated and began to have depression and anxiety. At first i met up with a therapist but seeing his demon of lie and manipulation i decided not to continue further . I decided to stay indoors.

Like i said i could see personal demons, a junkies demon aré blue in color, they had a deep sunken eyes and their smile are horrendous. A sex workers and an abusers demon were the ugliest of all, a murderer demon hold a large knives or a spear ,had horns, a large nose and an eyes añd are red in pigment,greed demons had tiny mouths and had no éyes, their hand are enormously large, but had a sore bump on his head,a liar demon had a long nose and had his skin scale of like fish ,a demon of an animal abusers looks like a humanoid figure having a severe arms and a long pointed teeth and a split tongues,and i could go on describing the demons, but the more kinds of demon i saw and encounter,my sadness grew, knowing how corrupted the world is, i felt at ease,only when i look at small and innocent babies, as there are no demon sticking to them but when I gazed onto their mother i saw demon's, and it really breaks my heart and makes me insecure. At times even young kids did have their demons sticking in them,but who to blame but their cruel parents, those kids had hate and jealousy demons in them. I got nowhere where there is peace even on television, i could saw their demons, even clearer,in electronics media. Even my dad had jealousy and adultery demons sticking both and co -existing together. 

Every one had at least one demons,but theirs appearance get deteriorated on how much sin they committed. I am no more at peace, feeling the happiness like before, even if they were smiling at me i couldn't feels satisfaction as i can look through their thoughts through their demon's.

I spend most of my time, inside my room, like before, the interaction between my parents died down . They were thinking that it's all because of the procedure i had many months ago. I thought of telling them of what I'm facing and seeing but the truth would be hard to handle so i decided to keep it to myself.

A year have passed after the incidents, i got a mail, a small package, with no sender name and address except the abbreviation of something, OTTE. ,A small logo ,an triangle with the eye inside and below a Latin phrase, which i have heard about and people classified its as an mythical organisation. 

As i tear off the wrapping and un-box the contents,im speechless. A tiny voice recorder,a diary ,and a letter.

The diary belong to Dr Gan, and its full of cryptic diagram and figure, and it's exactly like all the demon i see, some page were filled with diagram which no scientific method can decode, instructions on how to make a concoction,and so on. There are lot more written on it, and few pages were about me, even before i met him, it seem every thing is planned out well in advance.

 As i press plays on the tiny voice recorder recorded by Dr Gan, before he commits suicide, this voice records is his confessions,he had confessed everything about this surgery,and all the things i could do with my new eyes,and all the advantage and disadvantage.

 He called it the third eye.

He mentioned how he had planned on this for a long time after he came across a and unknown stranger in black suit revealing the existence of third eye, at first he experimented on his son but failed miserably as his heart is not pure, and the second subject is his niece ,but the results is still the same,a young lad of pure heart who had not seen much of the cruelty of the world can only be the compatible candidate for the experiment, and so he decided to choose me as he thinks its the one. Surprisingly you are the chosen one, the vessels for the Grand beings And the list goes on. And his voice memo ended with the sentence .

Have you look yourself in the mirrors lately?

The letter reads just a few words,

Be prepared for the Grand being. Be prepared!

Its all confusions .

I wonder who would have send me this, and i believe this is one of the sinister plots from some secret society , planning to enslaved mankind or bring an end to the world.

But with the passage of time, i understand all about their plans and their next phase. . The end of humanity is near,i had become an unwilling accomplices for the greater scheme of the Grand beings.

Whenever i look myself at the mirror, i couldn't see my demon but just my own reflection but on rare case ,i could see my own demon smiling back at me!

Whispering !! 

Are you ready? Are you ready ? Are you ready to welcome him?

I regretted , saying yes for this surgery, if i had said no, i would still going out and giving out speeches and doing well in my life, now all this isn't possible as my eyes are not mine.

I wonder how long will i have my own sanity , before he comes back to claim what it his!