Hope

It’s been 2 months, 3 weeks my hope has taken various turns. I am sitting beside the bed of my mother seeing her changes in different phases of her malignant brain cancer symptoms. I remember when the first time we took her to a brain scan for minor headache I hoped it was nothing but a minor strain but a tumor was detected and my hope turned to a different direction.

After several tests it was detected as a malignant tumor and my hope became positive when I heard that a neurosurgery may extract the tumor and I will get my mother’s life back on track. 1 month back her successful operation gave me a new hope but with certain constraints like life expectancy period and quality of life.

I had a hope that all post operative reports would be in the favor of her treatment.Eventually her biopsy reports came which revealed she had the worst type of brain cancer which couldn’t be cured.

I lost my hope to a great extent. Again after consulting several famous and brilliant doctors I got some of my hope back that my mother can be treated with chemotherapy and radiotherapy to to buy a life span of 1 and a half year.

Therapies started and she took few therapies positively and regained my hope that she will sustain for some more months. Suddenly few days back Doctors stopped her therapies saying her body is unable to take it and she might collapse if it continues.

Again hope was lost. My mother now doesn’t walk, sit or talk to me.She’s lying in bed and I am sitting beside her bedside trying to find a new hope for some days of her life since doctors told that she might overcome this phase and be able to take therapies subject to a little bit of miracle.I am hoping for that miracle.