Girl She Is Not A Toy To Play

I am a girl with big dream. I born in a middle class joint family. I had very good childhood till 5th standard. I have lots of friends we used to go school together we play together. There are 10 members in my family we don't have separate rooms for children we used sleep in hall with my cousins together. So that I didn't have any discourage to talk with boys and strangers. As joint family my family members are very supportive and taking care of us very well.

As the year pass I completed my lower primary education and got to another school for higher primary school. New school new friends and new teachers. Initially it is good, got new friends, new life style. My dream is to become a good sportsman. So I decided to join Kabbadi. Initially my parents are not allowed saying girls can't play such game and all. I forced them assuring I will get good marks also. Finally they gave green signal. 

I joined the team but no one from juniors I am the only one girl. All are seniors but they are very supportive. First day they said like be careful with PT sir he is kind wired like that. I don't know what's exactly that means. Practice started every morning used to go 30 mins earlier compared to other students. It was going good for 1 week. After that one day PT sir called me and said " you should come to school 45 mins earlier" I asked "why" he said" your junior right I need to explain some more skills to you so come early". 

I went to school early and no one is there after sometime he came and called me to sport room. I went in he started causal talks. I felt okay he is okay good I can talk with him. After sometime he told me to do some yoga. So that my body will be get stronger. I started doing after some yoga practice he came near to me started touching my arms I didn't know what's his intention. At that time some boys came for the practice. He said you can go to the ground and start practicing. This is continued to some more days. One day during my practice I got leg injury. I cried lot because that's my first injury after I joined. One of my teammates called Sir and he came and carried to sport room and did some first aid. He said other students to go and practice. He suddenly started touching my thigh and said nice started moving his hands. I was just 11 years old not knowing what he is doing. I said what are you doing sir, he said your pain will go faster don't tell anyone I will massage you. I simply layed on the bench. I didn't say anything. This is the first time I made a mistake not knowing what it is. If I took a stand and opposed then it will stopped. But this is the beginning of something which I didn't even imagined. 

I took 2 days off and didn't tell anything about that. After 2 days I went to school and went to ground he said come to sport room I will check your wound. I normally gone to sport room. He checked and said it's okay you will recover fast and asked " do you want to make you recover faster"? I said yes because in 1 week we had inter school competition. That's my first goal to enter the competition. He started touching my neck and my chest area I thought he was doing for me and simply I stood. Again he started pressing my body part and I felt pain an

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d said no it's hurting for me. He replied yes it will hurt don't worry you will recover faster. Also told don't tell anyone about this otherwise you will kicked out of the team. I felt something is not right, but I can tell anyone because what they will think about me. Also I can't even tell to my mom. 

This was continued for some more days and we got first place in inter school competition. Next was district level matches he said you guys need to practice more and more. Again he started doing same. Now he started doing more asking me to open up shirt and show. At that time I was really scared and started crying. He said don't cry just show quickly other wise you will kicked out of the team. I don't know what to do. I just showed and backed to my class. I was literally cried. Some friends asked what's wrong but I can't say them all these because I am afraid to tell them.

I changed my mind and told my parents to I will not playing kabbadi I having body pain and all. They said you only forced us to join right why now you quit. I can't tell more about my abuse in sport room. Later morning my mom came with me to school and informed she can't play please remove her from team. But HM tried to convene my mom. But I also told HM about quitting team. Then HM told okay once talk with Sir. I got scared and he told me to come to sport room I was literally scared to go there. However mom asked me to go. I went he start scolding me, if you left the team I will tell anyone about you he started blackmailing me. At the end I don't have any option to quite.

Daily he started abusing me in sport room. During next match I intentionally didn't played well. Our team got disqualified. I was really happy because I we didn't qualify we don't need to practice. 

Next he stop seeing me I tried to hide and tried to go with teams in school veranda. Actually I feel safe with my friends. 

During my school sports day, I didn't attend a single sport due to him. My friends asked why what's wrong. I didn't tell anyone. Exams completed and got summer vacation. 

Next 7th standard is started. I was scared to go to school but still I have to go. The procedure he told me to join the team and started abusing me. I don't have courage to tell anyone. Intentionally I didn't performing well in practice he started asking to come early again. I am in the situation where I can't go inside and I can't go outside also. This fear was literally killed me, it take me to level where I was literally scared to talk with my father alone. I started hating men. 

We got prize in district level competition. And that is last for higher primary students. Finally I was got out of this. Once the sports are done I just felt I was free from jail. During last 3-4 months I enjoyed my schooling with my friends. 

This was mine 2007 story. Due to some reason I can't share anything with anyone. I know most of girls gone through this but they don't express due to family, society, not matured enough, what other will think, blaming and all. 

I think it's there parents should talk with there child regarding school, behaviour of teachers, students, is anyone following you like that. Respect women.