Devastated!!

Again, feeling devastated in love and why so even I don't know. Actually, maybe I know can't express but stuck in relationship where you know the reality, but your heart can't accept it and yes mind is following your heart now. Radha ji didn't marry Krishna ji but still love is in inner heart likewise I fall in love. I get devastated when we mutually decide that we can continue our relationship but before our marriage and then God know. We both know we will be nowhere at the end but still hope!! Emotional intimacy is the key for any relationship and yes, we got into this.