Appreciation (Part4)

Continued from part three.....

She just wanted to run away. But she recomposed herself on the chair. She was looking at him. But, he wasn't able to look at her. She couldn't believe herself. She blindly trusted him and she felt that he had played with her feelings. She had anger in her eyes. She asked him what was he expecting from her? Sahil could feel her anger. He tried to clarify himself. But, Neetu was not in the mood to listen to anything.

 It was a letter from Sahil.

 The letter was,

"Dear Neetu, I know it's hard for you to believe me. But, I really love you. The place where I'm standing right now is only because of you. I couldn't forget you and your contribution to my life. But my life has other aspects also besides you. I am not saying that I don't want you in my life. Please try to understand. Marrying each other at this phase of life will surely ruin both of our future. I don't want it to happen. I don't want you to suffer because of me. We both are not even financial secured. This is an entertainment industry. Anything can happen here. Moreover, I am a rising singer, not a stable one. What if I am not able to feed you well? What if I couldn't complete your needs? I don't want to feel ashamed. And, you know very well, our marital status decides what kind of work we would get to do. When we knew all of this, why are we taking such a big risk ?? I know I might sound harsh to you but this is the reality. Please don't mind. I am not forcing you, just listen to me once. Can we have a live-in relationship? But without disclosing it to anyone except family. I don't want to lose you. I found this is the only way we could live together. Believe me, I am ready to talk to your family and I assure you, once I am stable, I am ready to marry you. I know I'm hurting you. I hope yes from you because I know how much you love me and I respect that. You can take your time. The choice is entirely yours. Please don't feel pressurized. But, give this thing a thought. Only I knew, how much courage I need to write all this. I am writing and confessing it all at the verge of losing you. You might not be interested in me anymore. I don't want to lie. But, I really think this is the option we can go for. Just for my sake, just once, think upon it.

Your Sahil."

Neetu was continuously staring at him. When she couldn't find an answer from him, she sat there for a minute and left from there. Sahil was continuously calling her but she didn't reply, in the fit of anger. She was heartbroken. He was expecting this only from her. He could understand her condition. She wasn't ready for what he was expecting from her.

She was staring at her phone waiting for his call. On the other side, he thought that it's better to give her some time. So he didn't call her. Neetu was thinking about the things that happened. She was reading his letter again and again. But, she couldn't decide anything. Her inner voice told her to be with him- no matter marriage or live-in relationship. Her second side asked her to give thought to her parent's reputation. Won't they be hurt? How they gonna justify themselves and this relationship? How she gonna make them agree? Her one side asked her to ask for his justification, another side would ask her justification of her love. Whether she truly loves him or not. There was a conflict between this and that going on in her mind. It caused her headache. She cried that night. When she sobbed to the fullest, she slept silently with her teary eyes. In the morning, she woke up with her puffed eyes. Instantly, she pinged him and asked him to meet her at 5:00 p.m. She texted him to the place where she wanted to meet him.

To be continued...