Amba's Musings

Dharmecha Arthecha kaamecha thvayisha naathicharithavya.

I dreamt about my wedding with King Salva.

I dreamt Salva holds my hand tightly in the panigrahana.

 We shared the greatest bond of love.

And the day of Swayamvara came. He is sitting to my right. I took steps towards him. I stand on his left. I can sense love in his eyes while he is standing up. We exchanged some glances.

I am ready to put garland around his neck. It means our wedding is officially confirmed.

Suddenly, a man named Bhishma came and announced that I and my sisters were gonna taken to Hastinapura.

Salva tried to save me but he failed in his attempts.

When Bhishma knows my love towards Salva, he sent me back.

But, he could have asked me before the abduction. Right?

Do you think I can ever get peace without my Salva?

He rejected me by saying I am won by Bhishma and I became his property.

Why? Why women have to be someone's property every time? 

Let me go to Bhishma. He is the one who created problems in my life. 

I urged him to do justice to me. He said he cannot ask his brother to marry me as I loved Salva.

He can't marry me because he took an oath to be celibate forever.

I requested him. He denied.

Even Parashurama, Guru of Bhishma was not able to do justice to me.

Everyone is convincing me to drop the idea of revenge on Bhishma.

Why? Why I have to stay silent?

Let me worship Lord Shiva. He is the one who never shows partialities to his devotees. Humans, Gods, Asuras, Prethas, insects anyone who worshipped him never faced rejection from him.

Om Namah Shivaya...

Amba started penance to become the reason for the death of Bhishma.