A Time To Love

How it feels without a partner!

Myself a single and happy mother. 

Was leading a happy go lucky life. I am single since 2014, lost my husband when I was 8 months pregnant. I was shattered like anything. But again up the courage that I have to live for the little one. Soon was blessed with a cute baby boy.I started living my life again and that also too happily. My munchkin just made me a proud mother. Initial stage I felt that its fine to be alone. My time was divided between my work and my son. I am a school teacher by profession. All was well till 2017. Then I came to about my friend who was going through a bad phase of life. His relationship was at stagnation mode. I tried calling him but in vain. He didn't receive my calls. Every day I used to call him twice, thrice sometimes four times even. But no response at all. Finally, I thought he needs some time to be stable. This all happened in the month of March. Finally, I got his call in the month of June. I was so delighted to hear his voice. My first question was hey friend are you OK, happy, and again single. To which he replied with laughter. I don't know but I was happy that now I can call him whenever I wish. Yes, I had a secret crush on him. At this age its not called crush but yes I loved him before my marriage. But unfortunately, he didn't agree. But I was fine. Because he is a very simple guy who never wanted to get married in another caste. I respected his thought. But yes he is a great guy so I felt how can he get divorced. That's not possible. He is such a good guy. Anyways to be true and honest I turned it into an opportunity. We started talking at least twice a week, then thrice a week, and then my dream come true. We started chatting and talking regularly. It was such a nice feeling to have butterflies in your stomach when you meet. I started feeling like at the age of 34 I am 17 and he is 18 and having an affair. Oh wow! This was the happiest moment of life. I had never felt so special, the way he made me feel special. My love for him started blooming like a flower. A year passed happily. There were certain times where I felt like it will end. Every night I pray to god for keeping our relationship healthy. Thanks to god. I am a person who loves to give crazy surprise gifts. So on his birthday, I gifted him a Minoan Doll as he likes Minoan too much. The days were going really very well. Then it was March. The dreadful month for all us. Initially, I felt that I haven't taken rest from so many months so this is a blessing in disguise. As a teacher, I anxiously wait for summer break. But wait this was prolonged. It still goes on with the online classroom. I met him last in the month of March. We used to have unlimited chats, calls, and video calls at night. I felt like one morning I should go and meet him. But there was no transport, his society didn't allow any outsider, I was so frustrated. We wanted to meet badly. This was the time I realized, he has become such an important part of my life. His absence mattered to me. I really felt his need. At the end of the day, I used to call him up, talk to him, sometimes even get frustrated saying that I need you at the end of the day so that I feel loved. Yes, he is the one who really gave me the courage to work without frustration. He used to call me up regularly. Video call me at regular intervals so that my energy levels were maintained. I am truly blessed with such a good person in my life. I am dam sure that if we would have been married then also he would be this only. Always a nice and good partner. I only listen to him when he speaks though that happens very rarely, most of the time I am the speaker, and poor my boyfriend is a listener. Now after long months, we met and I was so delighted. My dopamine level went haywire. Yes now we meet up once in days, But I do need him, his words, his motivational words all the time. 

So in this story, I just want to say tall husbands and wives that there may be a crisis, but please understand each other and respect each other. This time will also go and we shall have good times again. Husbands are busy with online workload and wives are busy with providing good food to him. So one is bread earner and the other is bread maker so understand each other's situation Both of you'll need love at the end. Let the pandemic bloom your love.