A Smile Can Change The World

It is those beautiful memories that makes me feel alive even today. Those days, which I thought the most precious of my life. The days which I miss a lot today. Those beautiful memories which make me laugh out loud even in my tears. But today, I am missing the Old me. I am no more the Old me. 

At the time when the doctor detected that it has already been late and it's impossible for a recovery, I didn't know my life would change like this. But I believed, I believed it's going to be alright soon. It's that hope which gave me the courage to live more. I have never thought that my life would change like this. But I understood, we cannot predict anything. It is my life and I have to live it. My life is my own responsibility. It is my own worries and sadness. There will not be anyone else to deal with it. But at the same time, when the pain attain it's peak, I would wish someone was near me with a hand to hold on or with a smile. But it was only my friend, my unknown friend, who would hug me with more and more pain. It started to love me deeper. 

In my world of fighting with that unknown enemy, all I could see was that beautiful smiles which made my life the happiest, fading away from me. They might have thought that they would be also in danger staying with me. But I wondered. Why can't they realize that it's not my fault? Why can't they understand that it's only a gift God has given me? I even thought of killing myself. But as I said before, those beautiful smiles kept me alive. And slowly, I came to realize that those fake promises where just a decoration for our relationship. I won't blame them, I won't blame anybody. Because, I know everyone has their own opinion for what to choose, when to choose and how to choose. If their choices become a burden to themselves, they have the right to get away from it. Let them go, I was waiting to see the ones who will stay till the end. I don't want to kill any one's  happiness. I know my worth. And I know, exactly I know, how to live. And I know, at the end of the day, all I have is myself!  

But today, I am enjoying my own company. I am the best friend of mine. I am enjoying a lot of things that I missed in the old days. In those days, I laughed. But today, I can understand the reason behind those laughters, the real sorrow of life. Sometimes, solitude will lead us in a different path, I can now enjoy the real beauty of the universe, the real man without his killing masks. It is on these days, I am pleading to see a smile, to sense a comforting touch, to hear a calming word or to feel  a tender kiss on my cheek. At those times, I remember, I used to beg them just to stop talking. Today I only have is myself! 

I understood, the purpose of my  life is to be happy and to make others happy. And now I have started to face all my problems with a smiling face because my  life is precious and  I am one of the most luckiest person in the world. And I am meant for the world. And a smile can change the world!!!