A Moment Of Life That Learned So Much Went Away

Today I realized that worldly love is temporary, only the love of the Lord is eternal.

  

At three o'clock in the afternoon, the doctors woke me up.

"Open your eyes, your orthodontic surgery is complete."

I stared at them in amazement. At first, I didn't feel any pain. Then I slowly turned my wet eyes to the right. Posters of my face were pasted on the walls. My eyes filled again. They were photographed the day before the surgery.

Shortly afterwards, I was taken to the ICU ward.

There was a strange senate shadow. There was a dim light in the room. I started to feel horrible. After a while, the doctors came and gave me a bottle of blood. In pain, I grabbed the nurse's hand. But because of the ventilator, I couldn't take it off.

Then the doctors called my mom inside. One of their cries spread through my body. But I began to shed tears from my eyes on the helpless bed as if a rosary had been broken and scattered on the floor. After a while, a sound came in my ears. I looked in front and my husband was holding hands and apologizing to me.

"I'm sorry."

His voice was muffled and his eyes were wet.

I wanted to stop them with my finger gestures. But could not stop. Because ICU was not allowed to stay in the ward for long. Like a senate in a ward. The sound was just the sound of a ventilator. All the patients were lying as if they were living corpses. My heart was pounding. For a moment it felt like the last day of my life. Just a few breaths in my life. I kept reciting prayers in my heart. It was night. It was getting dark in the room. The heat of hunger in my body became a little too much. Because 24 hours had passed, I had not put a single sip of water inside my throat. When I felt more hungry, I let out a sigh of pain. The wound was fresh.

So my effort added to my pain. After a while, the nurse approached me and asked why I was calling. Ventilator removed.

I gestured, but she didn't understand. Then she handed me the paper and the pen. I wrote with trembling hands that I was hungry. 'Give me food.' Shee read the words I had written and told me that we could not give you food. Then I thought how can I eat. I have had surgery. I began to remember every moment of life with wet eyes. Life is not what we think it is and the people who come into life are not the ones we place at the top of our hearts. People should always be on time. When you give them too much priority in your life, you will never know when they will be bitten by a snake in their sleeve. It was a short story about some of the worst moments of my life. Those were really scary moments.

Yes, now I realized that it's only he, Our Allah who can love you eternally.