What If I Lived

If only,

If only, I had survived;

If only, I had lived,

Like I was being loved.

You often laugh at my unresting mind

Had it also been cursed, 

But I’ve never seen you back down 

On the days I lay sick and in pain

On the days I grew blue and slain

On the days I gave up and stuck onto the drain

On the days I needed to be nursed;

I often hissed that you’d 

Strain a muscle or two and

Could catch a headache that’d blind;

But you broke no sweat

Thought no further and 

Soothed my attacks and 

Took away all my reasons to fret;

If only,

If only, I had survived;

If only, I had lived,

Like I was being loved.

-companion