ALLIED

I didn’t choose this life for me

Where I have to fake faces and hide from thee,

A love, a hope was all I dreamt

There was a time when for me destiny wept,

I choose to forget the personas I shed

Reaching out to you was an aspect I always had,

But it was a time you knew it not,

You took me a mere no one from the lot,

I didn’t expect you to be mine

Nor that you’ll say “I do” a while,

I expected you to walk away and never look back,

And exchange rings with someone else.

I didn’t choose this life for me

Where I can be a hypocrite whenever I wish to be,

I am a simple girl, I can’t act

I always fought with a hurricane, my intellect,

I wasn’t sand, I wasn’t the sea

I was a stone, and had courage to fight with anyone but me,

I was a no one to all, and a stranger to you,

You called me your friend; I would escape your words with no rues,

It was a time I dealt with myself like no other,

A turmoil inside which appeared serene no longer,

I couldn’t hide it because now you knew,

You drove me mad, my world gone askew.

I did choose this life for me

Where I could turn roads the way I preferred them to be,

I have grown complex, I am the star

I have learnt to win; both love and war,

I can calm the storm with a wink,

I am blessed with destiny’s wings,

I have learnt after all this time,

My inner self was what killed me inside,

I have killed it, now I am free,

I can fit in this world in a way I wish to be,

I did pay something that wasn’t really worth,

But I had to save someone-me or my soul,

I have no courage to fight with man O God,

Save me when I stand at Your Door,

I choose to save myself than my soul,

Just save me when I stand at Your Door. . .