The Undesirable Journey - III

Chapter - III

A Moment of Clarity

Days, months, and years passed by, 

Nothing changed, not one bit, 

Did I seek love, or was I in love with its concept?

Did I seek lust, or was it an addiction? 

Did I come anywhere near the eternal truth? 

Not even close! I see that now, 

The fight I have is the greatest one of all; a battle with myself, 

But, does the fact that I'm acknowledging my issues change anything? 

Not one bit!

Despite letting out everything I felt,

Under the impression that with words, my anger shall melt,

Nothing changed, not one bit,

Something inside eats me alive from within,

Crawling under my skin,

Are the demons that were long forgotten back?

Or did I embrace them with my arms wide open?

What is bothering me more? 

The fact I'm moving on or the fact I'm left out?

Or is it neither of the two and I'm just lost,

Could probably be it, I hope to find my way somehow,

If not for anything, I feel I'm a survivor at least,

For I've faced the lightning and the monstrous beast,

Wonder where this path will take me,

Wonder the kinds of people I'm yet to meet, and faces I'm yet to see,

I do not have the answers, but I'm certain of the fact, 

There is no deeper a pit than that I'm already in,

So, I will rise someday, somehow, somewhere, 

The thought of which gives me a hellish scare, 

But, it is bound to happen I'm sure I'd soon enter a state of stability,

Perhaps, someday, I will have my moment of clarity.