Tell me, Is it okay? To not be okay?

Tell me, how do I stay alive?

When there's nothing that helps me

breathe fine. 

It's all a mess, 

on the inside

on the outside, and everywhere else. 

I can't see past of what's happening around, and all the days, they just feel 

the same.

Perhaps, it's a loop I am riding on,

that keeps going round and round. 

So, tell me how do I stay alive?

My mind is always

at a fury, 

with emotions drifting in and out, 

like a feather in the breeze. 

And its not the endings that pains,

but the empty spaces that lies within, making me question 

if everything finally goes into vain?

So, tell me, how do I stay alive, 

when I have loved and lost, all in a year

and when there's nothing that 

helps me breathe fine and bear. 

So, tell me, if there are things that I do not understand,

emotions that are entirely out of my hands,

How do I breathe fine after all?

Tell me, how do I stay alive?

When I can't even hear someone say, 

"it's okay, to not be okay" at any downfall.