SINGING MY LIFE FOR SILENCE

When I suffer and I am in stress

Ink act as my best friend whenever I need to express

When I want to show myself

I fear from Critiques Shelf

A true heart of mine now masked in pain

Where I fake a smile to hide my stain

I lost myself in journey of hazy maze

By discovering truth in quieter phase

Where hard to clarify my self doubts

My inner voice warned to ask it out

Being known what was bad for me

I still carefree

In search for change

I found myself to be strange 

My heart full of talks to share 

I had to be independent for myself to repair

A fragile soul, locked itself

From being happy to sad for others health

Being known of everything bad for me

I still begged for a time on my knee

Aspirations on top but focus lost

Getting allured by phone the most

Anchoring a Middle Class Life 

Where I am the last hope to survive 

"You can be the best" my esteem whispers

But laziness attacked my scores

The confusion of staying down

I had to act like a clown

The same heart but altered face

Longing to love a friendly space

The direct words changed into sudden harsh light

My soul was blamed as fake to shine bright